Love Will Find It's Way. {Austlan Cashby} BoyxBoy

Chapter Seventeen:A Misunderstanding.

Austin's P.O.V:

I walk in to see Alan laying on the couch playing on his phone. Sophie is laying beside him, purring loudly like usual. I take out my phone and take a quick picture so I can post it on instagram and twitter.

"Hey baby." I walk into the kitchen and take out the steaks and vegetables I bought from a local takeout place.

I walk back into the living room and hand Alan his food. He smiles widely and sits up. His mouth is open and he's practically drooling.

"You're the best babe." He says happily as he puts a mouthful of veggies in his mouth.

I laugh and eat my food too, it was so good and it made me want to just eat the steak whole with the bones and everything, but I didn't want to choke and die so I decided against myself and took my time.

I watch Alan from the corner of my eye and I see him look at my healing cuts on my wrists. It makes me feel uncomfortable so I try to hide them but he notices my sudden change in mood.

"Are you okay?" He asks concerned.

I nod and finish my food before setting the garbage down on the coffee table. My wrists get itchy and I try to ignore it but it doesn't work so I start to scratch. Alan stares at me intently before clearing his throat.

"Don't scratch them!" He demands.

I scoff and sigh with frustration, the whole reason for cutting was so stupid and I regret it so much! I don't even know why I did it in the first place. At least I learned from my mistakes, well more like my regrets.

"Sorry." I mumble.

Alan suddenly brightens up and smiles warmly at me, his attitude changing. I laugh a little and look at him questioningly.

"You're so cute." He kisses my cheek before eating the last bit of food in his plate.

I laugh a little too obnoxiously but I don't care and I really don't care what other people think either. I snort half way through my laugh and it causes Alan to fall over from laughter.

"Its not that funny." I protest.

He laughs harder and now I'm confused because he usually never laughs like this. I raise an eyebrow and smirk, someones a little overly happy today.

"I love you." He says, suddenly calm and serious.

"I love you too?" It comes out more of a question and it makes me doubt my own self.

Do you really love him? Yes, of course! Are you ready to devote your whole entire life to him? Well, yeah. I did propose to him. Is this what you really want? Of course it is!

"Are you sure?" Alan breaks me out of my thoughts and I can't help but look down.

Would you ever leave Alan?

"No... I mean yes! Yes I do!" I quickly look up at him, I mentally slap myself.

Why did I have to answer my thoughts out loud? God, now he's going to think I'm lying and I can't take it back now, it's already been said.

"No you don't love me?" He raises an eyebrow and stares at me.

"No, I do love you!" I raise my voice a little but I quickly lower it.

"Sure." He gets up and walks off to our room and slams the door shut.

Great going Austin, now he thinks I don't actually love him. In reality, I love him way more than my own heart can handle and I know, I know that I shouldn't of fallen so fast but it happened. I fell for the most amazing person ever and I'm so grateful. I don't ever want to lose him because quite frankly, I don't think I'd be able to live without him.

I take my time going up the stairs to our room, just to give him a few minutes to calm down. I stand in front of the door, hand on the doorknob, heart racing. I slowly open the door to see Alan sitting on the bed with his knees to his chest, crying. Oh god, what have I done?

I hurry over to his side and I sit down and wrap my arms around him before pulling him into my lap. He doesn't say anything, he just cries quietly as I hold him tightly. I rub his back and I can't help but feel like such an ass.

"I didn't mean it Alan. I'm so sorry baby. I love you so much, more than my own heart can handle." I admit.

He slowly looks up at me, his ginger hair in his eyes. I push his hair away from his beautiful eyes and I wipe away the stray tears. He sniffles and sighs before looking down again. Hiding his face thats a tint of red and his puffy eyes from crying.

"I don't want you to see me like this Austin." He whispers.

"Why? It's my fault you're like this." I say softly.

"Im just so afraid I'll lose you one day." His voice cracks and I know he's about to cry again so I lean back and make him lay his head on my chest.

"Alan, I'll never leave you. The only way you'll lose me, is if you leave me. I don't want to lose you either." I feel him relax as he snuggles into my hold.

"I love you." He whispers.

"I love you too."

I soon hear his soft snores and it makes me smile a little. I can't picture my life without him, he keeps me going and he keeps me strong. Without him I'd be a mess, I wouldn't be the same. I love him so much.

[A/N: Sorry this is short, I've been extremely busy with school and my health isn't that great right now so I'm trying to get better. Thanks for reading, please vote and comment!]