Love Will Find It's Way. {Austlan Cashby} BoyxBoy

Chapter Eight:Advice.

Austin's P.O.V:

I felt like such a piece of shit, I don't know what's gotten in to me. Alan probably wants nothing to do with me, I treated him like shit then kicked him out. I need advice, from somebody who's a good friend and would accept my feelings towards Alan. I know Tino would tell me to get over it, Phil would probably just say I don't know like usual and Aaron, well Aaron could help, he's good with stuff like this.

Me:

Hey, can you come by?

Aaron Pauley:

Yeah, I'll be over in a few.

I put my phone down and just sit there, am I ready to tell my guy friends I'm in love with my best friend? Am I ready to show my love towards Alan? Am I okay with being gay? My head feels like it's about to explode, I can't handle all this and it's killing me. I cant sort this all out on my own, so I hope that Aaron can help me out. If not, then I'll just have to go over and talk to Alan myself.

A few minutes later, I hear the front door open and close, then footsteps. "Hey." I say softly as Aaron walks into the living room and sits beside me. "What's up?" He asks questioningly. I rub my hands together and look at him. "Promise you won't get creeped out? Or treat me differently?" I ask. "You didn't kill Alan, did you?" he raises an eyebrow and smirks. "No." I mutter. He laughs and pushes me playfully. "I promise." He says. I take a deep breath and try to gather the courage to tell him.

"Well," I start off. "I'm, I'm, gay. I mean, I like Alan, a lot. I feel like he lost feelings for me, he use to like me so much than I ruined it-"."I know." Aaron cuts me off and stares at me. "You know....what?" I say confused. "That you and Alan like each other and also how you kicked him out and what not." My mouth drops and I right away know that Alan talked to him. "Look, just go over there and tell him how you feel, or don't, but either way somebody needs to fix the problem." I roll my eyes and sigh. I know I have to fix the problem, this is all my fault.

"Well, I don't know. Was he upset?" I ask curiously. "He said that you were a piece of shit, no good screamer who needs to learn how to be a good friend." He smiles a little before frowning. "I deserve that." I mumble. "Maybe you should just give him space and maybe on tour you can make things better." Aaron pats my shoulder and shrugs. "Yeah, I guess." I mutter. "Look, don't let this get to you, you guys will be better before you know it, hell you guys might even date. Just don't let what other people say, get to you. I've been waiting for this moment." I raise an eyebrow and I wait for him to continue.

"I knew you guys liked each other way before you or even him figured it out. I'm actually excited, I've always wanted you guys to date. As weird as that sounds, its true." I laugh as he shrugs. "Thanks man, you're a good friend. Maybe I can learn from you." Aaron laughs and gets up. "Sure. I have to head out though, my lady is waiting for me." I get up and stand in front of him. "Have fun." I smile and give him a hug. I walk him to the door and watch as he walks down the driveway to his car. I wave once more before closing the door and returning to the couch.

I guess I have no other choice but to wait for things to cool down, from the sounds of it, Alan hates me. I think if I ruined our friendship for good, I'd leave the band. I'd want them all to be happy rather than deal with stupid bullshit. I love the band and I'd do anything for them and the fans but I can't continue on with it if all I do is make people unhappy.

I eventually turned off my t.v and went upstairs to my room. I take off my clothes, leaving only my boxers on before grabbing my giant squidgy and laying in bed and getting under the covers. I miss Alan, I miss just seeing his smile. I need to talk to him but maybe not for awhile. I turn over and cuddle with my squidgy. I yawn and shut my eyes, I needed rest. I slowly start drifting off and before you know it, I fall into a deep sleep.