The Last Wolf Standing

Chapter Thirteen

I braced myself, waiting for Zack's lips to meet mine. Why was I so afraid? He didn't kiss me, instead he angled his face so that his lips were in line with my right ear in order for him to whisper something to me.

"You thought I was going to kiss you, huh?" His deep chuckle made me shiver a little. I hoped that he didn't notice it. I nodded and let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding. "I know you aren't ready so I won't kiss you... yet." His familiar smirk graced his face and I couldn't help but smile.

Soon, I was relaxed enough to lie down on his bed. He was still sitting up so I threw my legs onto his lap and made myself at home. Zack had his eyes closed with his brows furrowed in concentration.

"What are you thinking about?" I wondered aloud.

"A lot of the things you have said since we met are really strange and hint at a bad past, I want to ask you about it but I know that if you want to tell me that you will. I just can't help but wonder what could possibly cause you and Lily to be rogues." He spoke very quickly, nervous. "I was walking past my mother's room and I heard you evade the question so I know that it is something awful, you were also scared when I leaned in. I could smell the fear on you, honestly, I didn't mean to scare you." He sighed.

I sat up so that I could look into his eyes, they were troubled. This was really bothering him. We hadn't known each other long but I felt like he deserved to know about what happened to me. I felt like we would become something more, like I was going to spend the rest of my life here. I didn't need to run again. I swung my legs off of his lap and over the edge of the bed. I looked back and I could tell that he worried that he asked too much or offended me.

"Let's go to your place, we need to talk in private." I whispered. He nodded and led the way.

We walked fairly slow so it took us a lot longer to reach his quiet place than the last time, I didn't mind, I wanted to make sure that I had all of my thoughts together. Maybe he sensed that. By the time we got there I had everything organized in my head, what I didn't plan for was the wave of emotions that I felt while talking about it. We sat down side by side. I didn't want him to look directly into my face when I spoke about this.

"My parents were the leaders of my old pack, The Golden Creek Pack. Stupid name, I know. My brother Cole was in line to be the Alpha but after he found out that I was leaving he decided that he didn't want to be Alpha without me by his side. My family was distraught so they stepped down. The soon-to-be Beta, Vance, is my ex." I took a deep breath, no one outside of my pack knew any of this. "He used to be very mean to me, threatening me, swearing at me and was being very possessive. When it first started I was very scared and after a while I realised that my fear only made him more willing to keep treating me that way.

"After a while I started fighting back which only made him angrier. He was the epitome of a jerk. He tried to make me feel as though he was the only one that could ever love me, then I realised that he was wrong. He tried to control me and now that I think of it, that was kind of dumb, my parents were the Alphas so if anything, I should have tried to control him." I continued, my breaths coming out short and hot.

"Did he hit you?" Zack asked, his voice laced with concern and venom.

"I was getting to that part." I sighed, "He started to get physical when I argued back and told him I knew that I could find a decent guy because he didn't deserve me. One day I was at his house and he grabbed me by my neck and pushed me up against a wall, my feet dangling." I spat with hatred. "He let me go and tried to apologize. I pretended that I forgave him so that I could leave the house without any problems. I went home and told my parents what happened and told them that I had to leave the pack. I knew that if I stayed he would continue to hurt me until he eventually killed me.