The unexpected

Chapter 18

It's friday night. We had a super day! We spent great time together. He took me for breakfast, it was delicious. We went to the mall, he was cool. He didn't seem to be bored, so the day was great. I took him for dinner, well he was angry that I paid, but I won. Yeah! After that, he paid for the movie theater, and he told me to choose the movie. Of course, I wanted to see 'Fifty shades of Grey' so we did. It was nice of him. The movie was cool, but I seriously prefered the books. We won't talk about Blake, he didn't stop looking at me. Now I'm unlocking the door of my room, Blake's behind me. Charlie's not there, she's sleeping at the fraternity with Chase. I'm not tired right now so...
-Do you want to come in?
He gives me his small smile as an answer, we're both going to my bed -to sit-. I don't know what to say, and I don't know what to do either. We could watch a movie? -Yes, again-.
-Do you want to watch a movie..?
He frowns. Yes, I know, again. I'll take this as a no...
-So...
I really don't know, and I feel awkward... It's awkward. I'm looking at the clock, it's 22:30, but tommorow's Saturday so we can stay up. Well, maybe there's a party at the fraternity?
-Does it have a party at the fraternity?
Blake's looking at the drawings of Charlie on her wall from my bed.
-Yes, I think there's a party.
Well, we could go. Because I seriously don't know what to do...
-You want to go?, he asks.
-We could...
-I don't want to, I prefer to be here.
Yes, for now. And after you'll go at the fraternity to fuck Tracy. I roll my eyes, and he looks at me.
-Hmm.
This is the only answer I have.
-What?
-Nothing.
It's not important anyway.
-So did you love "fifty shades of grey"?
He wants to talk about the movie, then.
-Yes, I did. But I prefered the books.
He frowns.
-You're a virgin, and you read the books?
It's my turn to frown.
-What's that question?
-Well, I just thought you weren't like this.
-OK, but being a virgin doesn't matter. And like what?
-I didn't know you liked this kind of stories.
-Stories with a control freak, and with sexual scenes?
-Yep.
-OK... And you, did you like the movie?
-It was good, but the girl...
My heart beats faster, he'll tell me that he found her sexy, he saw her boobs. Come on.
-I didn't like her.
I frown.
-Why?
-She was too... innocent.
I make a shy laugh.
-Just like me.
-Yes, maybe, but you're... Different.
- Well, she is. For him. And please... Boys should stop telling me that I'm different. You all love it when you start to know me, but after... You just leave.
He frowns. He becomes serious. What did I say?
-All?
-Well, I didn't have a lot of boyfriend, I only had Jordan, of course. But I talked with some.
-OK...
He's still fucking serious, like if I did something disgusting. It shocks me.
-Hey, stop it. I had one boyfriend in my whole life.
-I didn't have one.
You want to play this game, Blake? It becomes serious, and I really don't want to fight with him.
-How many girl did you fuck?
He frowns -again-.
-The point is, I had one boyfriend in my life, but fucking like you do, is a huge turn off.
He looks at me, like if I have punched him in the face.
-A turn off?
-Yes, it is.
-Why?
Stop asking questions, damn.
-It's not important. Anyway, you don't want to have any girlfriend, and I don't know if you'll have one. But if you find the perfect one, she'll probably be like you.
He seems attacked.
-Like what?
-Come on, we should stop this conversation.
My voice is calm, I really want to have a good night. He's standing up right now, and he looks right throught my eyes.
-No, go on.
-Why the fuck are you reacting like this, Blake?
-Go on.
His tone is harsh, almost menacing.
-Blake, stop, please...
-I should go.
I stand up, I don't want him to go! I hate this situation, come on, find something to say... No, don't think, just say what you want to say.
-Hey, don't go. I like to be with you, we had a good day, almost perfect, and...
Ok, finally, think before talking. I look weird...
-Ah, forget it. If you want to go, then go. I'm tired to fight for people...
He's now going to the door. Shit.
-Bye Lauren.
I don't answer anything. He's going to fuck Tracy. I know it. It gives me nausea.