The unexpected

Chapter 32

LAUREN
It's monday morning, and I just arrived at school. It's a little bit cold outside. I make my way to the main entrance, and I'm going to my literature class. Blake's there, he's reading something. Before I have time to think of it, I'm asking him a question.
-You read?
-Yes, well... It's kind of new.
-OK...
I sit at my place, and I take my books from my bag.
-Why are we ignoring each other?, he asks.
-Because we need to take our distances.
-It's been two weeks. Does it helped you? Because for me, it didn't. I'm still in love with you.
These words... I love these words.
-Let us a chance, Lauren... A real one.
And the classes starts. I'm thinking about what he just said. It didn't help the past weeks, seriously. I love him too, but I'm affraid to get hurt, really. It was hard to stay away from him... I try to listen to my teacher but it's pretty hard. I want to be with him, I want him! He's still in love with me, so I think it's a good thing...
* * *
It's the end of the class. I put my books in my bag, and I get up. He's getting up too, and he's following me to get out of the class.
-So.. Did you think about what I said?
-Yep.
He frowns.
-Yep, what?
-Well, we have a chance to make it work Blake...
You know that I love you, bastard.
We're not kids, he gives me his shy smile and I'm going to the dorm. We'll give us a chance, but right now, all I need is a nap.

I'm opening the door of my room, and Charlie's there with Chase. Forget the nap Lauren... Charlie looks at me, and she asks.
-What are you doing tonight?
-Sleep.
She rolls her eyes at my answer.
-There's a party at the fraternity, are you coming?
I look at her, almost exausted.
-Seriously? It wasn't tomorrow?
She smiles at my reaction. I'm really tired... I want to relax.
-Yes. There's a party tonight, and there's another one tomorrow.
I turn on myself, I'm going to take a snack.
-Ok, fuck it for tonight, then.
-Are you OK?, she asks.
-Yes, I just really need to sleep.
I take cookies, and I sit on my bed.
-So, you'll probably sleep at the fraternity tonight?
She rarely come back to the dorm when there's a party.
-Yep.
-OK, fine.
At the same moment, Blake texts me.
BLAKE
Are you coming tonight?
ME
Nop. Only tomorrow.
BLAKE
Why?
ME
I'm just tired... I want to relax tonight...
BLAKE
Can't wait to see tou tomorrow then...
ME
You can come whenever you want.

I really missed him the past weeks. I'm so in love with him, it's unbelievable. I want to kiss him. I need to feel him. I want him. God what has he done to me... I love him.

It's now 19:30, and Charlie's not there anymore. I'm going in the shower so I lock the door of the room. I turn on the hot water, and I get in. I feel good for the first time in a while. I'm glad that Blake and I want to try to make it work. Well at first I wanted to, and now he does want it to work too. I wash my hair, and my body, and I close the water. I take my towel and I put it all around my body. I get out of the bathroom and I'm thinking about what I'd do tonight. Maybe Blake will come? I lift my eyes, and he's there, on my bed. I frown, and I look at the door. I locked it, right? He looks at me, with a small smile.
-Yes I have a double of the keys... You weren't answering, and I heard the shower, so I just came in...
He seems shy.
-It's Ok.
I give him a reassuring smile, and I'm going to my closet. What am I going to wear as a pajamas? Blake's there so... I take my mini short with a t-shirt. I'm getting back in the bathroom, I put my pajamas, and I get out. I feel excited that he's here. Come on, I'm 19, I'm not 12! I'm joining him on my bed, and I sit right in front of him. In that way, we're face to face.
-So, you didn't want to go partying?, I ask.
-It's not the same without you...
His answer is really cute, I smile at it.
-OK... Then, there's no Tracy in the background?
If giving us a chance means having Tracy in the background, well no thank you.
-No one's in the background anymore.
-OK...
I don't really know what to say, I'm just happy. I'm looking in his eyes, and my heart starts to beat faster. He's looking at my lips, he wants me. He's so... God, I want him too. My breathe accelerates.
Kiss me, but he doesn't. I try to talk but it's hard because I really feel weak.
-What do you want to do?, I ask.
He takes my head in his two hands and he presses his sweet lips on mine. I put my hands on his chest. Shit, it feels good... All the butterflies in my belly are exploding.. It's just unbelievable. He takes me in his arms, and I'm now laying on my bed. He's on me. One of his hand's in my hair. I feel like I'm in paradise. I feel his breathe, we really want each other. Oh my god... He stops. I look at him, questioning myself.
-We should stop.
-Why?, I ask, frowning.
-I really want you, and we can't make it.
-Why?, I ask, -again-.
-It can't be like that...
Ok, that's kind of romantic. And sorry, but I'm not like the girls in the books I read. I don't take it personal, because I know that he wants me. I smile at him, and I give him a last kiss.
-It's OK., I say.
He sits, and he takes me in his arms. I'm holding him tight. It's just so great... Shit we -or I- finally realize that  "taking our distance" is just impossible. We need to be together.