The unexpected

Chapter 4

It's now 19h15, and I'm in the bathroom, to be ready for tonight. I dry my hair, and it's pretty fast since I cut them short. I really like the waves in my hair. I put my beige pants, and my khaki t-shirt - pretty simple -. I put some powder on my face, mascara on my lashes, and I'm finally ready. Honnestly, I'm not going there to have all the attention, I'm the simpliest girl ever - or almost -. Charlie's taking the keys of her car, and we leave. After the little visit of Chase this morning, I didn't make a nap, so I'm very tired... In addition, tomorrow we have classes! Ten minutes of drive, and we arrive in front of the large wooden house of the fraternity. I pass my hand in my brown ombre hair, and I try to find positives reasons to be here. We're going inside, and, of course, there's people everywhere. We head to the kitchen, and I see everyone but Blake. I really don't think that I'll drink tonight. I feel stuck in the kitchen, so I head to the living room to write to Jordan. I reach for my cellphone in my back pocket to see if Jordan called me, but there's nothing. I'm able to understand that he's far away from me, so it's hard to see each other, but he never have time to call me, or even text me. I lift my eyes up to the sofa, and at the same time I see Blake. He sat at the same place as yesterday, but he's not alone. The beautiful, tall, blonde girl of yesterday is sitting on him, and she's kissing him from his neck all the way to his collarbone. He's looking into my eyes, but I don't want to disturb him, so I'll talk to him later about yesterday, but honnestly, the only person I think about right now, is Jordan. Lately I've been lacking emotions, or feeling them very little. I've lost everything with Jordan, if I listen to my rational side, I would break up with him, but I don't want to listen to it. I sit at the end of the sofa, and I look everywhere. Basically, I would like to enjoy my evening, and I would like to feel alive for one night. I cast a glance at Blake, and I see the blonde girl whispering to his ear something I'm not able to hear. The only thing I hear is his rude answer.

- Not now,Tracy.

I don't want to keep my eyes on them, so I look away. I put my head into my two hands, preparing myself to go in the kitchen. I get up, and I head to the kitchen, but I feel my phone buzzed in my back pocket, it's Jordan. I answer my phone, and I retrace my steps to go outside.

-Hello?

-Hi, my love...

He wants to tell me something important, I know it by his tone of voice.

-You know what Lauren? I've been accepted to go in Brazil for a month, to perform in soccer!

It's very cool for him, but honnestly, I have no enthusiasm.

- It's super Jordan! I knew you'd be able.

My voice isn't as credible as I thought it would be.

-Lauren, I know that we won't see each other for a long time when I'll go to Brazil the first of March, but in reality, I won't be able to see you the next two weekends, before my departure...

Voilà, the little joy that I had just disappeared. I'm extremly sick of him!! One more time I feel the one and only feeling I've been feeling for a little while, frustration. I ask with an harsh tone:

-Why?

At the same moment, I see Blake coming outside, so I try to calm down. I lean against the wall, and I stare blankly at the street when Blake comes before me, he probably excepts me to hang up.

- I'm sorry Lauren, next weekend I have a soccer game, and the week before I leave, I'm with Julia.

Damn Julia, she always find a way into Jordan and I background. His new best friend lives in New-Jersey.

- Where will you stay? At her  house?

- Yes...

Blake's looking everywhere, but he's still standing in front of me.

-You won't come to see me ? I'm like fifteen minutes away from New-Jersey.

-No, we're gonna be too busy. And you wouldn't like to do our   activities.

WHAT?? Normally, it takes a day, and 22 hours of car, so we never see each other. In two weeks it will only take 15 minutes, and he won't come to see me? On an insulting tone, I ask him:

-Are you fucking  serious?

He knows that I'm frustrated.

-Lauren...

-You know what? I'm really tired. It's over. Bye, Jordan.

Without any thoughts, I hang up. I put my hands on my face, and I bend my head backwards. At this moment, I feel Blake's hands on mine, and he takes my hands away from my face. My god, I forgot him...

-Are you ok, Lauren?

I never noticed his beautiful brown eyes.

-Yes, I only need some fresh air...

I'm cold, but I don't care. I take a deep breathe, and I sit against the wall.

-OK...

He takes me in his arms, and we stay like that for a while...