The unexpected

Chapitre 9

LAUREN

I'm not very hungry. It's weird but I don't feel sad about my break up with Jordan. I put the plates on the corner of my bed, and I continue the conversation with Blake.
- I don't think she likes me, Tracy.
-Why?
I'm sure he knows why.
-She just don't seems to.
- She don't like girls, at all.
I smile at his answer.
-Correct yourself Blake. She don't like girls that you're with.
He smiles as an answer. He knows that I'm right. I look at the time, it's now 21:10, and I'm very tired.
-Why are you coming to the fraternity party?
-I just want to feel alive. I'm tired to be the cute, and smart girl from school. I wasted so much time with Jordan. Imagine how I would be? How many guy I would've fuck!
I make an exagerate expression, like if it was super cool, and he starts to laugh.
-You wouldn't!
-You' re right ha ha. I don't really think that I'm this kind of girl... Ok then, Imagine how many guy I could've kiss! Seriously, it seems to be cool...
He smiles at me.
-I know, it's ridiculous. Don't look at me this way!
I smile, and he smiles back.
-It's not, Lauren. I juste hope that someday, you'll kiss someone and you'll feel the butterflies. I've never felt it, so I can't tell you about it.
It's my turn to get shocked.
-You've never felt butterflies??
-No...
-Jeez, how could it happen? Blake!
He smiles, but he have nothing to say.
-Are you tired, Lauren?
-Yes, I am...
-Do you want me to leave?
-Only if you want to...
I like to be with him, but it's been a rough day, so I'm tired... He gets up, and I look at him. God damn it, he's so beautiful! I try to look away, but I don't want to. I look into his brown eyes.
-So, go have some good sex, and a good party night.
I give him a kind of fake smile that he gives me back, and he leaves.