The unexpected

Chapter 37

Blake's completly ignoring me. It's Friday, and there's a party -of course-, and I'll go there to talk to him. I'm preparing myself, and I'm going to the fraternity. Couple minutes later, I'm there. I make my way in the house, he's not in the kitchen, and he's not in the living room so I go upstairs. The door's lock as always. I knock.
-Blake?
-Get out of here Lauren.
-Blake, open the door, please...
-No.
-Ok then, I'll just sit there, and I'll wait for you to open this door.
I sit on the floor, and I stay there a couple of minutes. Then, I hear his footsteps. He opens the door, and he says:
-You know it's dangerous.
-Let me get in, then...
He rolls his eyes, and I can get inside. I know that he's mad. I'm sitting on his bed, and he looks at me.
-Baby, why are you mad?, I ask.
-You're not with Jordan?
He ignores my question so I ignore his.
-What's wrong with Jordan?
He looks at me, like if I was stupid.
-Are you kidding me? He's you're ex boyfriend and you were with him! It's like if I was with another girl!
-It happened many times...
I don't say it out loud but he heard it.
-Thats not the point!, he says.
-The point is, the other girls, well you fucked with them, and you kissed them. But was just telling him that I am with you now.
-He's your ex boyfriend! Look at him, and look at me, come on!
He's almost screaming, but I stay calm.
-I love you. , I say.
He ignores it.
-What are you doing with me Lauren? Look at him, seriously!
I don't answer. But he continues.
- Bam he appears at the University, and bam when I want to see my girlfriend, she's in her room with him!
He's shouting at me in some kind of way.
-Can you stop?, I ask.
-Damn, Lauren!
I get up, it's enough.
-Hey you don't even try to understand what I'm saying! I broke up with Jordan because I wasn't happy! If I wanted anything with him I would've stayed with him, don't you think? I accepted to talk to him, to make everhthing's clear. It's you and me now Blake, not Jordan and I!
-Lauren I don't deserve you! Look at all the girls I fucked with, I kissed. Don't tell me you want me, come on!
-I.WANT.YOU!
-Lauren--
I cut him, I don't want to hear any bullshit anymore.
-Shut up Blake! Stop making choice for me! I am with you, I want you, and you're the one I'm going to give my virginity to! Now just stop!
We're both standing in front of each other, and I look at him, when I see a tear falling from his eye. No, baby, don't cry. I feel weak, the frustration flies away. I walk to him, and I take him my arms.
-What's going on baby?, I ask calmly.
I know that he try to stop himself from crying, and it works. I take him to the bed, and I ask him again.
-Tell me what's going on baby...
-I don't want to lose you., he answers.
It hirts me to see him cry.
-You're not going to lose me, OK?
-I was affraid to...
I give kiss everywhere I can on his face. My baby... He takes me in his arms and we lay like that for a moment. I think a little bit, and then I whisper to him.
-I want you to make love to me Blake...
-Now?, he asks.
-Yes...
-Sure?
-Yes...
I'm a little bit affraid because I know it'll hurt, but I don't care, I want him.