What Does It Mean?

Purpose

I am human

I am human.

I have a heart that beats

I have a heart that loves.

So why do you treat me as if I am nothing.

Ignore me as if I was never there to begin with.

I am alive,

warm blood rushing through my veins.

Why do I feel worthless?

Why do I feel useless?

Why do I feel emotionless, when thinking about you.

When thinking about the past?

You left me, I had fell.

Into the deep abyss of your love that is now hell.

You never cared or you would have shared,

just the little bit of information of why you left me so dry and purposeless...

Am I that awful?

Am I just nothing?

Do I seem inhuman and do I seem so easy to drop and get rid of?

But no you used to love me, you used to care for my feelings too?

What ever happened to the 'we' in Welcoming?

Now every time I see your face it's a reminder,

of what I truly am.

What have I done wrong?

What did I do to turn you away so quickly.

I should be the one angry and ignoring you yet I didn't.

I welcomed you back as you pushed me away.

You say it's for me but it is only a lie.

No more of these constant lies and hatred you clearly show toward me.

I am human. I am alive.

I do not deserve your arrogance and your hatred.

I deserve love, I deserve kindness.

After the year I put up with you I deserve a metal.

But yet I am still confused, angry, depressed. Why must your love hurt me so?

All the promises shattered on the ground from your ignorance.

I am not worthless,

I have a purpose.

And that purpose is to make people happy.

Even though myself is falling into the hands of darkness though I only speak light.

When I fall I pull myself back up by continuing my purpose. And forgetting you yes indeed is true,

to be hard and hurtful but it's what I must do.

I cannot love anyone else till I move on from you.

I am human.

I am human.

I have a purpose,

I will never be worthless.