What Does It Mean?

Happy Pills

It's wrong but feels so right...

When I don't have you I cause a fight.

My mind is filled with memories of wanting you.

And I know you have those same memories too.

But we can't continue showing up then leaving.

To fulfill our wants and aching...

I cannot continued to be tortured  by your painful drug.

No more can I let my heart strings be tugged.

You cannot come and go as you please.

As if breaking my heart every time is just a breeze.

Because when you leave...

you have no idea what you have conceived.

I get withdrawal and begin to fall back down that same road.

When all of my blood flowed down my wrist, needed to be resewed...

You are my pill.

But every time I end up with the bill.

When you come back, refill.

When you leave you are ready to kill.

Show me how to be so heartless.

My happy little pill.