Until Forever

Confessions

Chapter 23: Confessions

MY P.O.V:

I opened my eyes and stretched out. I did a bunch of different stretches I used to do whenever I did yoga every morning. But screw that! Waking up at 5 in the morning isn't really my thing! But I do like yoga because I can relieve any tensions and stress with it. So, I changed into a pair of yoga pants and a tank top, and I went to the backyard. Now I'm not the type of person who likes hearing birds chirping and the wind blowing, so I put my earbuds in my ears and listened to music. I started off by doing light stretches. Then I got tired of stretching, so I put on my shoes and jogged around the neighborhood. It was really nice because the only other people were a few other teens and adults jogging, people going to work and old couples walking around. I was jogging for almost an hour until I felt tired and decided to go back home. Once I came inside I brushed my teeth and then poured cereal and milk in my bowl and I began to feast. Mmmmmm cereal! Lately, I've been loving cereal! Heck I eat like two bowls of cereal a day! I washed the dishes and went to my room to see if I got any texts. I got a text from Logan, 'I know you're mad at me, and I don't blame you, but I really need to talk to you! I'm coming over later so we can talk about all of this.' Urgh! I want to forgive him, but I don't know! This baby is a HUGE commitment, and if he's thinking all that right now, then what will happen when the baby's born? I also got a text from Victoria, 'Hey! Yea so after work I'm having a sleepover at my friend Angela's house. So see you tomorrow! And if you need anything just call me! :)'. Awesome! I'm gonna be alone tonight! 'Have fun! :)', I replied. Urgh! Today is going to be a very boring day!

I decided to call my mom because there was actually nobody to talk to. I dialed her number and waited for her to answer. . Wow she knew me well! , I said.

fine?>, she asked worriedly. , I said, hoping that she wouldn't be shocked or even worse, mad about everything. , she replied. Hmmm I wonder where I heard that before? What other person that I love told me that and failed to come through with their word? If you guessed Logan then you are absolutely correct! I was gonna tell my mom something like, 'Hah! Got ya! You thought something was wrong! But there isn't!! Hahaha!', or 'Something is wrong, but knowing you, you're gonna beat the crap out of me if I tell you! So I won't!'. I wish I could say either of those, but something inside me is telling me to tell her everything. I have a feeling that she may understand. , my mom asked, zoning me out of my thoughts. , I said and hung up. I didn't want to hear her reaction or have her tell me not to come, so I simply hung up. I called the LA airlines and booked a flight for 4pm. I went to my room and started packing my things. I didn't know how long I was planning on staying at my mom's. Was I even coming back to LA? No! I made my decision; I'm not coming back! I wish I never came here in the first place! Well other than becoming best friends with Victoria and Liam. And uhh Logan too. I still love him so much! But I don't know whether I wanna talk about everything with him or not. It would honestly kill me if he said everything he told his parents the other day straight to my face! I didn't want a baby in the first place; but I can change what happened! And I will not kill the baby! I'm not having an abortion! If I killed my baby, then I couldn't ever forgive myself!

I finished packing up all of my stuff and I took my suitcase downstairs. I checked the time; it was noon so I decided to make a sandwich. I was done making my sandwich and I finished it pretty fast! I should start timing how long it takes me to eat food! I decided to do that right now so I made another sandwich. I'm not a fat ass! In my defense there's a baby inside of me! I started the timer on my phone and began to eat. I stopped the timer when I was done and checked how long it took me to eat. OH YEA 2 minutes 38 seconds! That's my new high score! This game is actually kinda fun! I washed my dishes and went to take a shower. I took a quick shower and then changed into a pair of pink sweats and a grey hoodie. I dried my hair and tied it into a messy bun. I did a quick check to make sure I had packed everything. I slipped my phone and iPod in my pocket and I took my suitcase downstairs. Holy shit my suitcase is heavy! What's even in it? It feels like it weighs a thousand tons! All I have in it are my clothes, shoes and makeup. I didn't put 20 friggin baseball bats in it! I don't even play baseball! I've only played it once, but I ended up hitting my nose with the bat and it hurt like hell! I don't even know how I hit my nose! I was lost in my thoughts about baseball and I missed a step on the stairs and tumbled down. I landed on the ground with a loud thud. Shit I hit my head so hard! I saw my suitcase tumbling down and it was headed my way! I quickly got up before it fell on me! Thank god I moved just in time! I got up and dragged my suitcase the rest of the way down the stairs. Oh my god! I hope I didn't hurt the baby! I put my hand on my stomach and felt a little kick. Oh thank god the baby's fine! I put my suitcase near the front door and I went to the kitchen. Falling down the stairs made me really thirsty! I drank an ice cold glass of water. Then I laid down on the sofa. I put an alarm on my phone for 3pm and I went to sleep. *Beep* *Beep* *Beep* My alarm went off and I woke up. It felt like I just closed my eyes for a second! Urgh! Time to get ready for a 6 freakin hour flight!