Perfection Doesn't Exist (Under Editing)

Chapter 5

It was 6 and time was inching closer as I had to think of a way to tell my friends how I was moving.

I couldn't really think of anything because I was still in a little shock of what happened the other night. I can't believed he actually.....ugh I don't even want to think of that right now.

I started to practice what I would say to them.

'Hey so um...guess what? I'm moving next week! Hope you guys don't hate me it's all last minute news.'

No that doesn't sound right.

'Guys so if I moved, say like next week? Would you hate me? Because I'm moving, literally in like, a week'

Sure I guess that sounds better. I think. I dont even know how to explain this. I just hope they understand.

I got up from the couch to head to the backyard. I was literally staring at the wall for 2 hours. I want to make sure everything is good for tonight before I spill the beans.

I put the bag of wood and my favorite blanket by the door and headed towards my room. I got changed and texted Leah.

Me:
Hey I'm ready to go.

I locked my phone until I heard it ding.

New message

Leah:
Alrightyy I'm coming now.

I would of rode my bike but the heavy wood would make it hard for me to ride.

Five minutes passed and I heard a honk outside. She's here. Breathe. Why should I even stress? They'll still be my friends. It's not like we'll grow distant.

I locked the house door and headed towards Leah's car. As I got in she was blasting Levels by Nick Jonas.

She turned it down and turned to me before driving.

"Is everything okay Len?" she started, "I mean you wouldn't really set up a bonfire without some reason behind it."

"Honestly, I don't know. So much has happened this last week, I can't even take note of what's going on with my life."

The reason I've decided to move is because even if I wanted to deny it, nothing but tragedy has come to me by living here over the years. It's just too much to take and I don't know how much more I can take till I explode.

"Do you want to tell me? You know I'm always here for you right?"

"Yeah I know but I'm going to tell all of you guys tonight. That's why I wanted to have this bonfire."

I was on the verge of tears now, but I couldn't break down. Not now. Not just yet.

"Okay. Well just know I'll always love you. Got it?"

"Yes and I love you too."

She leaned over to give me a hug and I gladly returned it.

She started the car and headed towards the beach. We plugged in her phone to the car because we were tired of the commercials. We listened to The Weeknd, Chris Brown, and a couple other songs until we arrived.

Brooke and Tom were already there. I saw Leah tense up when she saw Tom and Brooke really close to each other. Even I was a little suspicious as of why they were so close.

Since Leah didn't like the scene, she honked the horn. They both were startled and then relaxed when they saw it was Leah. Man, Leah gets jealous so easy.

I got out of the car and grabbed the wood before greeting Brooke and Tom.

"Hey Len, Leah. So what's this all about?" Brooke asked curiously.

"Um I don't actually know. Len told me to set this up. She won't tell me why though. She says she'll tell us all tonight." Leah shrugged and laid out her chair in between Tom's and Brooke's.

Tom and Brooke turned to me confused.

"It's nothing really big, honestly." I lied.

"Okayyy." Tom said dragging his y.

Just then Travis and Kiki came. Great, now I just need to grow some balls to actually pull this off.

We started the pit fire and sat in our chairs with blankets. We didn't address the subject right away. I was thankful for that because I got a bit more comfortable.

Then it was time.

"Sooo...." Travis started, "what's this exactly about?"

Leah, Tom and Brooke turned towards me.

"Um so what would you guys do if I had to move, like say, next week? Would you guys hate me?" I then waited for a response.

They all looked at each other before returning their gaze to me.

"Are you joking?" they all said in sync.

"Actually, no, I'm not. My Dad broke the news to me the day I came to the beach with puffy eyes. I wanted to tell you guys but I was hoping something would stop us from moving but I had no such luck."

I didn't want to tell them I actually agreed to it later on or they would really hate me then.

"What the actual fuck Lena! What? How is this happening? You can't leave us. Not now. Especially not now, it being senior year! What the hell!" Kiki yelled at me with a pissed off expression.

Is she really trying to blame this on me? Like I had a choice to change things? She made me get heated up so fast, I cracked.

"Oh I'm sorry. You're actually believing I had a choice! Well sorry but I didn't! Not until I got raped AGAIN. Then that changed my mind!"

Fuck.

It was silent. Why did I yell that! I'm so dumb! My anger got the best of me and I spilled. I mean I was bound to tell at least two of them but not all of them!

"Lena, I'm so sorry. I didn't know. Who did this? Len, who was the fucking asshole who did this to you?!" Travis said while raising his voice.

"A-a-andre." I whispered not wanting to remember what happened.

"WHO?!!" Travis was boiling mad now.

"Andre did. H-he raped me. The day of his party. He was d-drunk. I tried to run but I-I was so scared a-and weak. There was nothing I could do but take it." I was close to crying now. I never wanted this night to end up like this.

Travis walked up to me and gave me a hug. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I bursted into tears. It hurts to have these bad things happen to you. It scars your life.

We hugged for a long time before he finally pulled away.

"I wish-"

I was cut off by his lips. I missed the feeling of this. I kissed back and we made out for a bit. He then pulled away.

"I'll always love you Len. I'm going to take care of that douche. He deserves what's coming his way."

Before I could tell him to not do anything, he pecked my lips one more time and left.

All I could do now is pray that Travis doesn't do something that will make him end up in jail or worse, dead.

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Authors note:
Ok Justin will be in the next chapter but towards the end and into chapter 7.

So his leaked nudes in bora bora...honestly idk what to think I mean he did know there would be paparazzi there but idk. But he is grown so I'll let all assumptions aside and wait till theres an explaination.

What do you think of his 'purpose' tattoo? I was like seriously? Who gets a tat above their belly button? Wait...Justin does! Haha.

I can't wait for the package I got for the album!

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