Chasing Lyric.

Standing in the Eye of a Hurricane.

Lyric

No, Reina. You're with Jaden and you're happy with him, you love him and he loves you.

You are not a cheater, you're faithful! Don't get yourself into this situation.

My heart said..

You know you want to LaReina, just kiss him already.

Look at those beautiful almond eyes and those lightly plumped lips.

Just do it already!

My mind said..

"No, no, no! This is wrong! This is all wrong!" I whispered pushing Ray lightly away from me.

He backed away, staring at me with a confused face.

"What's wrong Rein?"

"YOU. I can't do this. Not with you, that would be wrong. Please, don't do this to me."

I turned on my heels ready to walk back out before anyone gets suspicious.

"Reina, wait." He lightly grabbed onto my wrist and turned me to face him.

"Listen, i'm really starting to think that I li-"

"Save it Rayan, we're." I gestured towards me and him.

"Just friends, i'm with Jaden and that's it, nothing more. I'm sorry Ray but this can't happen."

I pulled my hand away from him, giving a sincere look before walking out.

As much as I wanted to kiss Ray I couldn't. I couldn't do that to Jaden, i'd be throwing away almost a year of a relationship because of a feeling that I thought I had.

I really hope what just happened in there won't affect our friendship, he really is a nice guy and I would hate to lose that friendship.

I really am sorry.

I didn't mean to make it sound like he would never have a chance but I am with someone and if he was really my friend then he'd respect that, right?

"Hey." Jaden greeted me with a smile as I took my place next to him again.

Seconds later Ray came back out staring at me as he made his way towards the table.

I stared back feeling a little guilty for leading him on, I guess.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Jaden's voice snapped me out of my mind.

"Huh? Oh, it's nothing." I took my eyes off of Ray and looked at Jaden.

"Really babe, it's nothing." I tried to give him my most genuine smile.

"Okay then." He leaned in and kissed me with everything he had in him.

He put so much love and passion into.

After a few seconds he tried to deepen the kiss but I pulled away.

"Um, i'm going to go use the restroom. I'll be right back."

I got up from my seat and walked to the bathroom not to actually use it but to get away from everyone at the moment.

My mind was spinning with questions but no answers to why I feel the way I do right now.

I put my hand on my forehead holding it as a headache started to pound in my head.

I absolutely felt almost nothing when I looked into Jaden's eyes, even when he kissed me, nothing.

But when I looked into Ray's eyes it was like every firework in the world just exploded around us.

His touch, his presence, the feeling of his cool minty breath on my lips sent chills all throughout my body.

Jaden's a nice person when you really get to know him.

The girls only saw him as walking sex and tries to jump on him at any given chance they can.

He used to be that player that would fuck every girl that even looks at him but I broke that and he's been with me ever since.

Girls hate what I turned him into but I wasn't going to date a player and he didn't want to lose me so he decided to change his ways.

Rayan too, but I see past all of it. He doesn't fool me, not one bit. He's too nice to be a player.

The girls are on him everyday of the week but he swerves every girl that comes across him, and now I know why.

Because of me..

They both have pros and cons to them but I feel like i'm leaning more towards Rayan than Jaden but then I think about what me and Jaden has been through.

I can't just drop him like a bad habit, he's been there with me through everything.

And to just up and leave him for one of his 'homies?' That's just trifling.

I walked towards the sink and turned the knob to cold water.

I leaned against the sink letting out a big sigh and looking at myself in the mirror.

How did I get put in this predicament?

Why me?

I put my hands under the cold water and splashed my face hoping that this would make me feel a little better.

I grabbed a few napkins drying my face and hands.

I threw the napkins away and walked out of the bathroom.

"Craig, Chres, Ki, i'm ready to go. Maybe you guys can catch a ride home with Jacob?"

I turned to him and he had a frown on his face because he knew something was wrong but he nodded his head.

"Yeah sure, i'll take them."

"Thanks, i'll see you guys later." I grabbed my keys and bag and walked out of the restaurant.

"Wait, what's up with you Rei." I turned around and sighed heavily when I seen Jaden walking towards me.

Here goes nothing..

"Nothing's wrong Jay, I-I just need some space right now okay?"

"LaRe-"

"Please don't make this harder than it has to be, just give me my space, alright?"

My throat began to get dry and a lump started to form.

I turned and power walked to my car, leaving Jaden standing there clueless to why I needed space.

I unlocked my door and got in, closing the door behind me and starting the car shortly after.

I drove to a nearby park and parked next to the curb and put my head down on the steering wheel.

I honestly don't know what I want anymore, it's just so confusing right now.

Basically I just threw out almost a year relationship, when I said I wouldn't.

I let out another sigh.

"I'm standing in the eye of a hurricane.."