Salvation ( Completed..editing)

- Chapter One-

"Long as I live you will be my first love and I choose you again"
- Avant

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Dawn

"You should have told him who you were!" Moniece scolded me. I had just got off the phone with Ant for the fifth time within two weeks and not once did I build up the courage to tell him who I really was.

"Told who what?" Marcel my older brother asked coming into my room without knocking first.

"She called for that dance program in New York but didn't leave her name" Moniece lied to cover my ass. Marcel was psychotic when it came to my well being. A dude couldn't even cat call me in public without him trying to kill them.

"Stop playing around Dawn. You twenty two now. When you gone branch out and explore a little. Shit do the things a nigga can't." Marcel begun to lecture me yet again. It's like he does at least twice a day. He swears up and down I was wasting my life by staying home and attending a community college.

In all honesty I was wasting my life but when you're holding someone down and secretly at that it's hard to do too much. I'm in love and happy. After high school I got a job stripping which helped me to put money on Ants books and pay for the p.o box to send and receive letters from him.

"I wish you two get off my ass already. Once I get my associates in human services I'll branch off to do the things I truly love." I told them. Only Moniece know that I strip which I planned to tell my mom soon.

"We will see. I'll be back tomorrow. Ima drive up and visit Ant. Haven't seen my nigga in a few months." Marcel informed us and left the room.

"You should.."

I held up my hand to shush Moniece. We sat in silence for five minutes until Marcels car backed out of the driveway

"Tell your mom, Ant, and Marcel. Just get it over with. Would you rather get a reaction before he got out of jail or when he gets out and you have to face him everyday."

"Mo I just can't. What if he straight up hates me. I didn't intend for things to get so deep but it did and now I fear that he will regret everything or feel as if I played him." I stressed on the verge of tears.

I've always had feelings for Ant, but because I was much younger than him I never said anything. When he got locked up five years ago is when I finally gained the courage to tell him how I felt but from my own insecurities I used a fake name.

"Dawn you're flat out beautiful and any man would be thankful to have you. If Anthony decides to be stupid then let him. I know you've grown a deep connection based off more than just feelings alone. He should feel the same way."

"I just fear that because him and Marcel are close that he wouldn't even give me a chance. Plus we are five years apart for crying out loud. Oh lawd what if he go back to Maria or that Kellena." I started to cry feeling as if my world will eventually crumble.

"Aww mami don't cry. I know it hurts and you weren't expecting to fall for him the way you did but it's done. At least if he say you catfished him you one damn bad catfish. We owe Maria an ass whooping any way. That bitch Kellena can get the hands too. If he do go back to one of them than that's messed up." Mo made me laugh.

"I'm going to tell him the next time we talk."

I fell in love with a man who doesn't even know who I am but does.

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Ant

Later at the county jail...