Drugs or Love {Eminem}

Chapter 13 fighting cheating bleeding Sam's P.O.V

2 years later.

"you just don't understand" I screamed. "I said I was sorry" Marshall screamed back. I was crying.He knew what he did was wrong real wrong. He shouldn't of done that. "Sam please I said that I was sorry" He grabbed my arm hard and it hurt. "I said I was sorry" I cried some more. "why would you tell her that my dad raped me now they're bullying me over that Marshall I fucking hate school but I only have 1 more year left". This was a senior year. Me and Marshall have been fighting more than ever. That's because he's been getting high ever. I walked into my room. Winter was now 2 years old. I was 19 and Marshall was 21. I turned on the T.V and the guy said. "Yes this is Marshall Mathers but you know him as Eminem the bad ass rapper who just doesn't care he's gotten over 10000 views on his one video Slim shady and his new movie 8 mile is a great hit it's about his life becoming the famous rapper he is now because he's slim shady yes the real slim shaddy all of those other slim shadys are just imitating" I through the remote at the tv and it shattered. I knew that I hated it really I did. I wanted him home with me and his children. But what Marshall didn't knew that I was pregnant with his daughter I told him but he was so fucking drunk and high he didn't remember. I jumped out of the small window. I landed on my feet and I walked. "you know he's cheating right hun?" I was talking to Tiffany my best friend who got us together. "I know but I don't want to believe it" She was holding Winter's hand and we was walking down the street. I cried some more. "why don't we go out for drinks come on on Slim shady" I smiled and said "yeah okay Phil can watch the kids"

I only had 3 beers and Tiffany had like 50. I drove her home and I decide to go back home too. "Marshall?" I said. The lights was out but I knew that he was home. I found the light switched and when I tune them all I saw Marshall in bed having sex with some other girl. I felt hurt and sadness all over my body. "Marshall" I said. He looked at me and said "we're done get your shit and get the fuck outta of my house bitch" I went into Winter's room and started crying. It was his house he did buy it. I got my cloths and before I went into the bathroom and took 6 painkillers. I took them so I could get all of their pain out of my mind.

I drove to Phil's house and knocked on the door I was still crying. "yeah" he opened the door. "I found Marshall in bed with another woman and he broke up with me while he was in bed with the girl" He put his arms around my shoulders and hugged me. Last night I crawled in bed with Phil. I wanted someone to hold me. "Phil" I said. "what" he said. "why do people cheat" I asked. he sighed and said "he's on drugs Sam just don't do anything stupid and i'm sure he'll take you back once he back to normal" I cried and said "why does he have to do that why does he have to lay his hands on me why does he hate me" Phil covered me up and kissed my head rubbed my back and said "he's a good kid but he's just doing bad things and he loves you but if he lays his hands on you again I will kill him" I cried some more but I knew that Phil would take care of me and the kids.

I woke up and I got ready for school. Phil drove me to school because he also worked thee. "Have a nice day and i'll watch Winny" he said. Everyone called Winter Winny Marshall Mathers thought of that name was she was born not Slim Shady. I loved Marshall but I despised Slim. Slim hurt me Marshall hugged me and kissed me. Slim would rape and he never did but I think he might. Marshall could have sex with me but if he would see anything hurting me Marshall would end their lives. Slim would just laugh.

It was halfway done with School. I was think I could make it through this long painful day. "Oh well lookey here what's this oh it says that you guys broke up" That was Jessica then Jordan said "aww honey are you going to cry see we knew it that you was never going to last with Slim shady." They laughed. "lookie here's a photo of Slim sleeping with some other girl and here's Sam crying oh and there's Slim telling her to get lost" I cried I didn't know how they got that. "aww why don't you just die" they said. I grabbed my bag and ran into the bathroom. I grabbed my knife. I was balling. I tried to calm down but I saw was Slim shady fucking some girl than telling her he hated me. Him hitting me. I got out a piece of paper and I wrote down. "i'm so sorry I wish custy if Haylie Jade Crossfield and Winter Robin Mathers to Phillip Jack crossfield. To my family and friends I hope I did this because of School and Slim Shady. Please don't save me I wanna die I give all of my belonging to Phil and my children I wish to be buried next to my brother Robert Crossfield. Please tell my children I love them with all of my heart and to Marshall I hope you know that I will always love you and Slim I hope that one day you will be able to find help."

I got into my bag and I took out my anti depression pills and took the last 12 of them I swallow each pill one by one slowly than I cried some more. I signed my name on the top of the paper and at the top named it "my last and final will" than I took my knife I was so drowsy I cut both of my wist I just let the blood flow out of my body. I wanted to die. I wanted to die because of Slim Shady.

Phil's P.O.V

When the school called and told me that Sam almosted died because she tried to commit suicide. I was so pissed. I didn't care how high or mad or sad he was. He needs to know that she needs helps and that he should of never hit her or hurt her. I stormed into shady records. I knew that he was in the middle of doing a livestream but I didn;t care. I walked into the door and I slimed the door. "Marshall" I screamed. I punched him in his face. His body guards broke up the fight instally but what he didn't knew that I grew up in Chafo and so I also know how to fight. "the fuck man" He said after they broke us up. I calmed down and sat down and said "you're a fucking devil" I knew for once he wasn't on anything. "what u mean man" he said. I got more mad that he didn't know "you what happened today I got a real good phone call from trh school" I said to him he said "what call" back I shouted "it was the school calling me telling me that they found her in the bathroom knocked out with her wrist bleeding from her trying to kill herself because of you and that she was bullied because of you and you charting and I just thought that you just might want to know and you're paying for her to get help" I took 9 deep breaths in. "is she okay" I could tell that he was sad. I said "I don't know she wants to die that's all I know she;s my little sister and she wants to be dead because of you" He looked down and said "we broke up" I charged at him and punched his in his stomach. His body guards broke up the fight again. "i'm sorry" he said. He was holding his stomach I have never been this mad I wanted him dead I wanna kill his bitch ass. We calmed down and I said "look just pay for the damn whatever she needs and get the hell out of our lives that meas Winter's and Haylie's lives" He got defensive and said"there my kids" I said "you can see them on the weekends but Haylie is my little sister. he rolled his eyes and told security to get me out.