Drugs or Love {Eminem}

Chapter 22 back in the game Marshall's P.O.V

Hi I am so Sorry i haven't updated in a while I've been busy with school work but winter brake starts the 18th and i'm planing on updating some more and more of just a fan plus I have another account that I wright books about but there not about EMINEM I am going to try to update once a month but the picture is the one that Sam loves and the concert is the full one of the one Marshall went too} {Finished}

"I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

Lately, I really, feel like I'm rolling for delf like Philly

Feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely

Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining

But life keeps on complicating

And I'm debating on leaving this world this evening

Even my girls can see I'm grieving, I try and hide it, but I can't

Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty when inside I'm dying?

I am finally realizing, I need help

Can't do it myself, too weak

Two weeks I've been having ups and downs, going through peaks and valleys

Dilly dallying 'round with the idea of ending this shit right here

I'm hating my reflection, I walk around the house trying to fight mirrors

I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat

But what do I care? I give a fuck, only thing I fear is Halie

I'm afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her, shit

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon

Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snapping at you

Marshall, what happened that you, can't stop with these pills?

And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughing at you

It become a problem, you're too pussy to tackle

Get up, be a man, stand, a real man would have had this shit handled

Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed

They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust, nah

It ain't like Doodey to do that, he wouldn't fucking shoot at nobody, he'd fight first

But dwelling on it only makes the night worse

Now I'm popping Vics, Percs and Methadone pills

"Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it"

Fucking drug dealers hang around me like yes men

And they gonna do whatever I says when, I says it

It's in their best interest to protect their investment

And I just lost my fucking best friend, so fuck it I guess then

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes

My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable, man