Drugs or Love {Eminem}

Chapter 14 recovering Marshall's P.O.V

After they took Phil "Em?" my best friend Proof from D12 said. I knew that I was about to cry. "I'm good" He put his hand on my shoulder and I baugin balling "why would she do that" He gave me the look that said "you was on drugs" "I know but still I didn't think that she would try" I was so depressed. I went back home that night. "Em?" I looked over "don't worry just thinking" I said. It was Proof. we grew up on the streets with me and Sam. He was still going to school with Sam if he wasn't working with me. "she did get bullied a lot and it didn't help that you cheated on her with some slut" I layed back on the bed and said "yeah but I was high I didn't mean it well I was going to break up with her wait that's just slim talking I love Sam and I love the kids what's going to happen she almost died because if me she hates me" They was still doing the live stream. "she fucking hates me man" I mumbled while crying. I rolled over on my stomach and buried my head in the pillow. "she hated Slim Shady she loves Marshall and that's your name your name is Marshall Mathers" He said back. "I know but still I should've treated her better I need to see her I need to tell her I love her I need her" I got up. I fell to the ground crying. "where is she Proof?" He helped me back to the bed and mumbled "Hospital she keeps on trying to kill herself she screaming that she wants to die keeps on having packet attached and she also said something about you" I knew that it wasn't good at all. I didn't even wanted to know. "I still wanna see her I -I can handle it I wanna tell her that I forgive her and that I will take her back." "what you mean man,you cheated on her with some slut you broke up with her she did nothing okay yes she went to Norway with Tiffany her boyfriend and her boyfriend's brother but she never cheated she wouldn't of done anything" I got defensed. "she didn't tell me where she was and she had the girls with her I thought someone kidnap them" He got defensive back "well than maybe you should stop smoking the weed and then maybe you would be getting some from Sam right now it was your birthday and well happy birthday man your girlfriend is in the hospital and she wanted to die because of you and well she doesn't want you to even see your kids so just happy mother fucken birthday man i'm outta here"

Sam's P.O.V

"Morning" I looked over and there was a camera "hey Proof please tell me that" he cut me off "he's not here" I sighed in relief. "it's his birthday you should be there with him doing the live stream not here with me" he rolled his eyes and said "he's down I told him that you didn't want him to have his kids" I smiled and said "no I don't want him to even think about his kids then maybe he'll get help but for now I need to fucking get help I mean I wanna die but I don't wanna leave my kids and i'm not going back to school" Proof walked over by me and said "relax just get some rest don't worry about anything you and that kid needs sleep and you should tell him that you're pregnant but not now he's depressed he says he stills loves you but I told him that you didn't want to see him do you?" I gasped "he's not going to kill himself is he no he's not he's fine right right right" I felt my heart beat real fast. I didn't want him dead. The nurse walked in gave me a shot of something and I calmed back down. "he's fine Sam now you want him here" I closed my eyes and thought about if "he can come if he's not Slim Shady I want Marshall here Eminem can come too but if he's Slim than no" "okay" he said. He grabbed his cell phone and walked into the hallway.

A half an hour later the door opened. Winter came running in with Haylie. The door opened more and Marshall walked in took one look at me and sat down. He didn't say much. "Marsh?" I broke the salience. He looked up he was wearing a bald cap. I could tell that he's been crying really hard. "come here" I said. He keeped his head down and he shook his head. "Marshall I said come here please" He finally got up out of the chair and he slowly walked over to me. I scooted over near him. He knew that I wanted him to hold me but I also knew that he was to depressed. "Marshall look at me" He looked up for about 2 seconds then looked back down. I had enough force to grab his hand. The Dr gave me all kinds of drugs that would numb my body so that I cannot try to harm myself. He held my hand than I saw the tears streaking down his face. I knew that he wanted to bury his face in his arms. He didn't like crying at all and he was live and it also his birthday. "Happy 22" I said. He grabbed a chair and sat down near me. I kept on trying to get him to talk but he won't he would only mumble stuff.

A few days later after I decided to get help and Marshall sia that he would pay for it and that he was also going watch the kids too. He was driving me to the mental hospital we was still broken up. When we got there the lady told me everything that I needed to know I saw all kinds of girls who was probably just like me. Before I went with the lady I looked at Marshall who everyone knew and they was all around him. I closed my eyes and Imagined us being happy like when he first got famous he loved me of course he worked long hours but I knew that he would always come straight home and hold me. I remembered when he had his black hair when his bleached blond hair faded when he was 20 he shaved his head and then his black hair grew I didn't like it at first but then I loved it. Hid black hair really bring out his blue eyes. That was his nickname I called him Blue eyes. He acted like he hated it but he really didn't than the fame got to him and he bleached his hair again when he was on drugs and that's when all of the fighting happened and the hitting and the cheating. I knew that I was shaking I opened my eyes and Marshall was standing there with his hand on my shoulder. I looked him in his eyes and I hugged him. He hugged me back and he didn't let go. I knew that he had a girlfriend he admitted that they have been dating for 6 months now but I still gave him a little kiss on the lips. He gave me one last hug and I was on the road to recovery.

After my 2 days without no human contact. I walked over to Mike who handled with the girls. "Is that Marshall?" I said. There was a window and it separate the people who needed help and the the people checking in.

"yeah he's dropping off your stuff like your laptop now you can get on the internet but you can't get on social media but you can get on YouTube. the girls like there music and not many people have laptops so you're lucky" he said. "can I see him I know i'm not supposed to but" He smiled and opened ed door then got on his phone. I stared at him weird. He rolled his eye and said "that's means go" I ran out of the door. Marshall had some blonde chick when he was telling me that he had another laureateship for 6 months he said that the girl name was Kim. I walked to him. I gave him a little wave and he  put his arms around me and hugged me. He started tearing up. "don't you will make me cry" I said. "i'm here to get the stuff you can't have like Rob's dog tags" He handed me them and I kissed the tags in memory of my loving brother. "Give them to Haylie and don't let her take em off" He nodded his head and put them in his pocket. Mike was standing in the doorway "Sam let's go" he said. I gave Marshall a hug headed inside where my new life is going to begin.

"Dad who's laptop" I heard a girl's voice say. "she's your daughter I whispered" "no they all call me dad" Mike said back. "mine" I mumbled. "Sam this is Lindsay. He waved and I just got on the internet. I was watching Eminem's performance of without me. I knew that it would mess me up but he helped me out it's just him with other girls and him laying his hands on me that's what really fucked me up. "Eminem yeah he's cute" I looked over. I smiled and said "yeah he was my boyfriend" she was in shocked. "oh so you're the girlfriend" I looked down and said "he still loves me he's just into drugs and won't get help" She nodded and said "he is cute" I smiled and said "yeah I known him since he was 16 and he's 22 now" "Damn" she said. We smiled and we watched different videos on YouTube but when I closed the tabs I saw a folder that said "Old videos of Sam and Marshall" I clicked on it and there was all of the videos and photos of the good memories.