Drugs or Love {Eminem}

Chapter 20 saying goodbye forever Marshall's P.O.V

3 years later

finished

"Happy 34th birthday man" Proof said to me. He had Faith in his hands. "Hey baby how is my 6 year old baby girl aww you're getting big" She ran to me and hugged me. "happy birthday daddy" she said. She still talked like a 4 year old but I didn't care she acted like a 3 year old but she was getting there. Me and Sam decided to let her start kindergarten next year. We helped her out on everything. "so is Sam still pissed at me?" We got into a fight about the girls again. She was pissed at me because I told Haylie that I really wasn't her dad and she cried like forever. "yeah she's still mad" he said. I sighed. I had Faith because it was birthday and also I was away for her birthday and me and Sam decided to have Faith over for the weekend. "I have to pee man can you watch her" We was standing outside of a bar and I don't my 6 year old baby girl to go inside a bar.

When I was signing autographs in the bar because Eminem entered a bar. I heard 3 gunshots than I saw a black van with a pistol drive off. I got scared. I knew that I could trust Proof but still. I ran out of the bar and I saw  Faith on the ground bleeding. I started balling. I picked up Faith and held her in my arms. I knew she was dieing. "somebody call 911" I screamed at the top of my lungs.She was still breathing and Proof was created from the first bullet than the second one went into my daughter. When the ambulance came and took me away from my daughter.

D12 came with me to the hospital I didn't drive I was still balling. Since I was her father they updated me and also I was mad. She was in surgery when we got there. I was crying bawling screaming and everyone was staring at me. "please you gotta let me see my daughter Faith Hope Mathers 6 years old she got shot" I screamed to the nurse. I was taken to the room where they was operating on Faith she was all bloody and passed out. I just stood there with blood on my shirt and in socked. I saw the look on the drs and I saw Faith hand fall she was dead. I stepped back and then the nurse and the drs was staring at me. I swallowed. I ran back to the waiting room where everyone is. There was a cart and I though it across the room. "how is she?" Proof said. I fell on my knees and thought about it that now I had to tell Sam I had to say goodbye to Faith forever I would never hear her voice again she would never go to school never have friends never get married never live a life. "she's no longer with us" I mumbled. They let me go into the room where she was. I was with D12 and they knew how much I loved my daughter. I pick her up and I was crying I said "Daddy loves you baby yeah but you're no longer suffering now you're in a better place i'm the one who suffering now I know how much you girls want me and your mother to be happy again and even if it's the last thing I do I promised I will make it work with her for you. I put her back down and drove me home where my daughter was not returning.

When I got to Sam's house she was crying and so was Phil. Sam was holding Faith's baby blanket. "Marshall" she uttered while crying. I sat down on the bed next to her and I put my arms around her and I cried with her. "I-I tried everything to save her" I said. Sam let go of me took my shirt off and though it on the floor. I knew that the blood was bothering her. She hated blood. She put her arms around my bare skin and than we fell asleep crying. When I woke up by my cell phone calling I answered it "Hi this is the furnal home i'm calling about your daughter faith-" I cut him off and said "no please we just lost her i'll let you know what we're going to do we just need eachother please don't call anymore" than I hung up. I decided to turn my phone off so I won't get any more calls like that. I picked up my shirt that had Faith's blood on it. I hugged it and than I put in the washer but I knew that I could never wear that shirt ever again. I took a long hot shower and tried to forget about the seen replaying through my mind about me and Faith. When I got out Sam was setting up with a strange look on her face. I walked up behind her and put my arms around her she jumped. I rubbed her back. "it's just me" I said. She layed down and said "hold me" I put my arms around her and kissed her cheek. I played with her hair and I said almost in a whispered "I promise Faith that I would make us work things out" She looked at me and said "yeah we will but if we date now we will brake up again because we're going to be upset about Faith." she said it in a whispered. I knew she was right. But I didn't care. "yeah I know but I love you and we're gonna get through this together" I said back. I grabbed her hand and she smiled at me. Me and Sam didn't get up from that bed for anything. We sadly planned Faiths funeral and everything else. She was buried and I didn't go to work I didn't want people to ask me about her.

It was 3 weeks after Faith's funeral when before me and Sam went to bed I said "i'm going to work tomorrow and I think you should too okay" She smiled and said "yeah i'll try" We kissed than we went to bed. I got up showered and turned on the news. I was eating a bowl of cereal. I knew that before I left I was going to wake up Sam and make sure she get's ready for work. "DeShaun Dupree Holton, better known by his stage name Proof was shot and killed in the Detroit night club he was 32 year's old.Police says Proof was shot in the head he was rushed to the hospital he was pronounced dead at realval he was the best friend to Eminem and people say it was the same type of car that shot and killed Eminem's daughter just a few weeks ago he will me missed deeply by everyone." I started breathing heavy. "Sam" I screamed. She ran in "what" I replayed the new and she hugged me and said "it's going to be okay it's all going to be okay" Later that night I went for a walk in the back roads. I was going to kill myself I was not going to keep suffering like this I closed my eyes and started thinking about Proof about Faith about the fact I just lost my best friend my daughter and my pride. "ow Marshall is that a gun?" I opened my eyes. I ran into her and the gun fell out of my hand. "answer me" she said in a demanding voice. I nodded my head. "what was you gonna do?" I knew she was pissed at me. "Sam please don't just take me home I wanna go home now" I said while crying. We walked home and I had my head on her shoulder the entire time. I was half asleep when we got home. She walked me into the bedroom and laid me down then walked out of the room.

I got up to pee at 2 am and Phil and Sam was talking in the livingroom. "you okay Marshall" Phil said to me. I noddd my head. I went to the bathroom and then went back to bed. I felt Sam crawl into bed with me. "go back to sleep" she whispered into my ear. I smiled and rolled over and I wrapped my arms around her. I got up again at 4 am and up at 6 and Phil was still up. "did you go to bed yet?" I asked. "no because if you kill yourself Sam will never forgive me" he said. "but I thought you hated me" I said again. He paused his movie and said "I don't hate you but I don't like you it's bauce you laid your hands on my sister and you need help you know she found methadone pills that's why she was yelling at you" It was true last week she came over with the kids and she had a headache and she asked to take a pain reliever and she found the pills and she got pissed off at me and we haven't seen eachother since today when I bumped into her. "Yeah maybe I do need some help" I said back.