Words on Memories

Chapter 11

Annddddddddd I'm backkkk!!!!!

Yeah, after two days....

Another upload, yet again unedited.. too lazy to fix anything right now.... and btw, this one's pretty long...

So, read, cote, and let me know your fav characters!!! :)

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For the rest of the hour, I was in a state of shock. I had to do something. I had refused to look at my phone again.

You know that feeling you get, when something is so wrong that it shouldn't be happening and then you realize that there's nothing you can do to stop it? And your ranting heart can do nothing to stop it. Nothing at all. Because your heart is scared. Scared shit. Just like you are. You can't help but want to cry. And it's not the quiet sobs that you want to do. It's wailing and screaming. It's so loud inside your head that all you want to do it scream it all out. But you can't. Cause you care about the people around you and you don't want them to know that you're hurting. Cause once when you were hurting, you hurt other people too, unknowingly. So, what can you do other than hope that it won't happen again. And the only thing you have to do it consume it all within and not let others know.

A loud knock on my door stopped me from my thoughts. I panicked. No way in hell can Mom find me like this; tearing to pieces.

'Yeah Mom?' I was surprised at how my voice felt. It was like a croak. Like I was crying. Suddenly I felt it. Moisture. In my cheeks. I was crying and I myself didn't know that.

'Ash, everything alright?' now she sounded genuinely worried.

Screw Moms who can figure out everything.

I quickly wiped my tears and cleared my throat. 'Yeah Mom. Come in!'

She opened the door and stared at me. Hopefully nothing gave away.

'You okay?'

I nodded and smiled.

It's ironic. The entire day went perfectly and completely fine. And once you begin to wonder how it did, one tiny thing, one thing as tiny as a text message can ruin the entire fucking day.

Mom raised her eyebrow; not believing.

'Mom, I'm fine. My head is just aching so bad.' I lied perfectly.

'How bad?'

'Real bad.'

'Are you nearing your period?' Mom asked. It was a side effect for me. Whenever I neared my period, I got this really sick head ache. Sort of like the hangover headache. But unlike a hangover, this headache never goes until my five days get over.

Girls usually get cramps and I get headaches. Weird. I know.

'Yeah. I think I should be.' I said, which was true. I was supposed to get in a day or two.

'Okay, don't worry. I will bring you some soup. You don't need to come down for dinner. You can have it and get a good sleep kay? Sleep your way through it.' Mom reassured me.

'Sure Mom.' I smiled.

She smiled and left.

That's when I felt my sight get blurry once I realized that I was yet again, gonna break down.

I ran to my bathroom and locked the door. I don't want anyone to see me cry. To see me break down anymore. I ran the shower and climbed inside, with all my clothes still on. By this time, I was already sobbing.