Rants and Poems

Rant- Still Hurts

Sup guys,

I'm not sure who's reading this, but if anyone is, thanks a ton.

For this next rant, I'm going to talk about my non-existent love life. Pretty sure I ranted about this already, but here I go again because it keeps getting rubbed in my face.

I'm not in a relationship because I don't think anyone is interested in me and I'm not actively looking for someone to date. I'm perfectly fine with not having a girlfriend/boyfriend, but it's a different story when it gets shoved in my face. My brother apparently does not know when to shut his freaking mouth because he just loves to make stab after stab at me. Which is a lot different from 'swing after swing'; it's on going joke, you would never get it.

So, what happened is my brothers and I were teasing each other. We had just finished dessert and all in good spirits (No, we did not consume alcohol). Anyway, I said something about the way he does something or other and he says "Do you want me to go back to our last topic, J?" I wasn't sure what he was talking about because all the other conversations were put behind me already. He says,

"Why you can't get a boyfriend?"

"Because I don't want one."

Then as I'm walking to my room, I hear him mutter, "Because she can't get one, OH!"

My littlest brother then says, "Nice one." And I swear I heard them high five.

Don't get me wrong, I love that my brothers can get along even if it's at my expense, but ouch.

How many times do I have to say that I don't want a boyfriend? How many times do I have to think about and explain my failed summer romance? And how that time has made me cautious, suspicious, jaded, of any other relationships I may create?

My lovely, limited audience raise your hands to being single, heartbroken, emotionally shattered, mentally shattered, and physically shattered because of some screwed up relationship. Raise your middle finger to those that say "Why don't you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?," "Why can't you get a girlfriend/boyfriend?," "What's wrong with you?," "You're cute enough to get a guy/girl," and whatever clever shit they think they can throw at us. And while we're at it, revel in your single pringle status because the wait will be over one day and we can tell everyone else that taunted us, "Stick it, bitches."

Until next time, my loves. Hopefully, my next rant won't be about relationships, no promises though. If anyone is reading this and wants to make a request, shoot me a message. Don't be shy :)

I'm listening to "Heartbreaker" by Jayme Dee.