Forever Young

Chapter 12: Kiss Me or Not

I wake up to basically see Adams ass in my face.

He is sat up and has something in his hand. I don't worry about it and close my eyes again and turn around to face my door, trying to fall back asleep. But after a few minuets I give up and walk to my bathroom and throw up.

"Shit..." I mumble and wipe off the "left overs" from my mouth.

Adam runs in the bathroom and ask me If I'm okay, I tell him I am but surly he knows I'm lying. Well of course he does he can always tell.

"Your lying to me babes. Whats wrong?" He asks again.

"Adam, I'm fine okay?" I wrap my arms around him. He smells like cologne and I have no idea why.

"Where are you going Adam?" I ask.

"Job interview babes."

I roll my eyes and crawl back in my bed. He already has 4 jobs, one more am I won't even see him at all anymore. I start to tear up thinking about it but I hide myself. I pull my iPod out of my night stand and grab my earphones too and put em in my ear and pull me duvet up to my head and play my One Direction playlist.

Adam walks out just as Justin walks in. I quickly close my eyes and pretend to sleep. He sits on my bed and pulls my duvet down to my shoulders at least and strokes my hair.

"I know your awake, and if I'm wrong it's known that if a human is asleep and being talked to, they can process everything they here. But anyway let me get to it. I really like you. More than your sister now, that we have shared a kiss. I fell like you may like me too. After all you didn't stop me. And when you said no, I didn't know what you meant. But I was hurt that maybe you were saying that you never want to try I out. I know you have Adam and I know you love him but I just want to share one more kiss with you if that's all I ever get again. And if you are absolutely awake, I had a feeling someone was watching us kiss, make out, whatever you wanna call it but I know someone was watching. Well I will let you sleep, I know you don't feel good. I love you Erin, remember that."

He got off my bed and my pillow is officially soaked with tears. He goes to the French doors and walks off onto the balcony.

I wish I could have said something so I didn't hurt him other than "no".

But that's how I said it and I guess that's all I said really.

I text me mom and Harry.

' coming to your concert here '.

' what's wrong mother? '

I lie down and cry more. Just enough to hear Anneka come in and ask what's wrong.

"I kissed Justin." I whimper.

She looks at me like it isn't new news.

"I know that." She replied.

I gap and look at her.

"You were the one watching."

"Yes. And it seemed like you liked the kiss. I've kissed plenty if bits myself if I may say and that was not a "goodnight" kiss. I saw you deepen it."

I sigh and cry again.

"I want Adam out. I know it seems like a bitch move but he doesn't belong her. I don't like him in 'that' way."

She gasps and looks at me.

"Is is about-"

"Justin? Believe me no. He is working 4 jobs and I can't take never seeing him for 5 to 6 days at a time. Where as I could see someone like Justin everyday."

She smiles and takes my hand.

"Most girls would call you a bitch. But you aren't. You are completely right."

She gets up and looks out my side window.

"If it's a bad boy you want, you shall have it. If it is an evil leprechaun, you need it. And if it may happen to be a pussy cat lover... It shall be."

"You would have never said that in real life."

"But this is real Erin. It's not a dream."

I laugh and then smile.

"Justin says he wants me to kiss him again..." I say and look at her.

"Go for it Erin. It's your choice. Here, go for a swim. Take your mind off things."

I get up and but a bikini on. Open my balcony and jump off.

I forgot about Justin sitting on my balcony. He takes his shirt off and jumps in too.

"So, Erin."

"Justin, I heard everything you said."

His. Cheeks get red and he smiles.

"Ad every the kissing part too Justin." I smile.

He comes closer, just like last night and I can tell Anneka is watching.

I laugh and pull my self into Justin's arms for a hug. Just a hug.

But instead we end up like the night before. Heads, well lips, touching. Hands in the right place. And the smell of chlorine.

He deepens it and I hear a clearing of the throat and turn to see Bay.

"It's not what you think Bayleigh."

She rolls her eyes.

"You call your legs wrapped around him and you making out with him... Nothing?"

She mouthed the word 'wow'.

I look up at her, and plead with my eyes.

"Don't tell Adam or Madi." I say.

"Okay whatever." I say.

I go back to Justin. I breathe in and kiss again. It's so wrong. I'm basically a no good cheating whore.

I look at Justin pulling away.

"Im a whore." I say finally.

"Erin, you are not a whore. Don't ever think that at all about yourself you are beautiful the way you are and your personality is beautiful."

I blush and kiss him again before going back to my room and seeing my phone flash bright.

'Oh cool we should meet up... You know.'

And another from my mom.

'Well fine you know. But your father is harming hard times breathing.'

I reply to them both.

'I would love to hang out with my idol!' I put an lol in there too.

And to my mom:

'Mom, tell him I love him.'

I set my phone down and a minuet later Anneka and Adam walk in.

"Erin." Adam looks at me angrily.

"It's not my fault he found out!"

I look at my balcony and I ask Adam to go out there with me.

"Why did you kiss him?" He asks right away leaving me with guilt on my hands.

"I'm sorry Adam, you know we tried this girlfriend, boyfriend thing before and it didn't work. You have 4 jobs and never see me. And I haven't heard I love you from you for awhile and it hurts." I cry.

He apologizes and says we are over and I hears boxes being packs and them a car drive away.

I cry even more when Justin walks out my French doors.

"Are you okay? You look horrible. Come with me."

He takes me to my bad and tucks me in. He leaves and 6 minuets later comes back with soup. He kisses my lips and leaves my room.