Day 21:
I feel so empty
If I can i would cry
But there is no feelings to cry out you selfish empty bastard
Will it ever be?
Day 22:
To start again? Pffff, easy I did it 100. Times, just never stick to it...
Day 23:
"And then I realized how hard it rlly is to change, even hell can get confy once you settled in. All i want is numb inside me to leave"
I want my heart and my soul to speak
I see humans passing by, every day, they dont care....
I used to smile without reason and dreamt most beautiful dreams, I want that again
Day 24:
"The days are a death wish
A witch hunt for an exit
I am powerless"
I try to fight the demons but they got so strong! They r stronger with every day and i cannot hold it any more!
"You say this is suicide, i say this is a war!
And Im losing the battle "
I scream into empty space
Swords of demons are tearing my heart and raping my soul
Everyday
Every fucking day
It never ends
And never will
If you read this and im dead, do me a favor and live a better life than I do.
Lol, that is not hard or much to ask!
Smile every day, say a good thing to yourself and smb else while you still can!
Otherwise you turn into me!
Day 25:
Today is my birthday. Worst of all... All i think of is how i had a year to do soooo many things, but i didnt. But fuck it i did so many things last year!
With 16 yrs old I:
-Found a true love
-Got my heart stomped on
-Got 88(out of 90) depression points
-Tried suicide many times
-Fought against 10000 demons
-Beat 88 points and my depression[[lol? I obviously had a LOT of hope here but this is not true...]]
I survived a year! Many would bet id die with 16 but i didnt! I live! Many demons tried to destroy me but i still breathe and i get stronger with every breath i take! I can live.
Still, whats the point of living, working and studing when on the end of the day you dont have place you call home or person you call love?
