What if?

18. I Need You

-Luke-

        What have I done? The person that actually loved me for me, the person that didn't care about fame, the person that didn't care about the amount of money I had, the person I loved, is now on her death bed. I hope I'm wrong but what the doctors are telling me, it's like there was no other way for her to wake up.

        Why did I have to be so short tempered? Why couldn't I have let her explain? Why did I have to be such a dick and accuse her without knowing the entire story? Why do I have to be so stupid?

        If only I could turn back time, I would have pretended like I didn't hear what she said and surprise her like I intended to. I'm sure she would bring the topic up eventually when she's ready. I should have answered her calls and replied her text. I should have listened to the voice mails sooner. I should and shouldn't have done so many things. Those things that could have prevented this from happening.

        But it's too late now. I'm here in this hospital room, sitting next to Charlotte who looked so peaceful sleeping. I'm not going to say she's in a coma. I didn't want to believe that she was in an eternal sleep that would eventually turn out to be her death. She was asleep. She will wake up soon. I'm sure she hates the smell of hospitals as much as I do. I laughed thinking about her cringing at the smell when she wakes up- if she wakes up.

        My smile faded. I wonder if she could hear me. It has been three days since I got the call from the hospital telling me Charlotte was in an accident. I have only showered once. Spoke to a few people, Charlotte being one of them of course.

        I've played my guitar when I wasn't at the hospital and I've only eaten a burger and some snacks I don't remember. All I care about is Charlotte and all I want is for her to wake up and be with me. I took a seat beside the bed and held her hand in mine before speaking softly to her, "Hey Charlotte. It's Luke.. Yes I'm back and we are on day three. I'm still sorry for being an asshole back at Starbucks. I didn't mean to eavesdrop, I just happened to hear and I didn't think twice before snapping at you."

        I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry for not letting you explain. I'm sorry for not answering your calls. I'm sorry for being late because I was being stubborn and didn't want to listen to the voice mails you sent me. I'm so so sorry for everything. It's all my fault that you're lying here right now in a deep sleep. I hope you wake up soon. I want you to wake up. No. I need you to wake up. You're so important to me."

        "You've made such an impact on my life you have no idea. You've changed me. You've changed the way I look at things, at people. You know what? You saved me from falling into a dark hole. You met me half way and lead me back out. And for that I can never thank you enough. I would do everything I can to show how thankful I am and.." I paused.

-Charlotte-

        Hearing these words from Luke made me even more of a mess than I already was. I wanted to be in his arms so badly but I couldn't. All I could do was watch him talk to my semi-dead body. I was still crying when he continued, "I love you Charlotte. I love you so so much. I never had the courage to tell you because I was afraid that you'd call me crazy." He laughed. It made me smile. He loved me.

        "Honestly, I was also afraid that you were using me. I've been used so many times that I didn't care anymore when some chick comes up to me, flirting and all. But then I met you. The first time I saw you back at Darling Harbour, I knew that you were different. You were lost but your face lit up when you saw me. I knew that you weren't like any other fan I've met."

        "You didn't freak out about seeing me in public but instead you just smiled at me. For heaven's sake you laughed at me when I fell face flat before helping me up! Our unexpected date at Starbucks was amazing. I got to know you better and found out that we liked a bunch of similar stuff. Not everything but I don't mind. It was the way you talk that made me fall for you. The way you talk about something you love, you had stars in your eyes. You were beautiful. Even the morning I woke up with you beside me, no make up, nothing, you looked flawless. You might have a pimple here and there and your skin might not be as smooth as a baby's butt," he giggled making me giggle too.

        "But you were perfect. You're perfect to me. I may not be as perfect as everyone thinks but I hope I'm good enough for you. I will try to make you happier than yesterday everyday. I promise to stay no matter what life does to take me away from you. So what if my band goes on tour? We can still call each other or Skype and all of that. Besides, who knows you could come with us? I mean you can sing and you're so so good at it. You could be our special guest or something.." He trailed off.

        "Oh how I wish you were awake so I could see you get excited about coming on tour with me. I just wish you're awake. I wish this didn't happen but it did and I'm sure God has his reasons. Oh yeah! I bought this the other day.." he said reaching into his pocket. He took out a necklace with a ring in it. He took the ring out of the chain and said, "I bought this ring for you, I didn't know why at first. I thought of making it like a promise ring but then again I'm going to make it unique. It shall be our life ring. Why? Because it has a magnet on one side of the ring and it will stick to mine." He took this ring that he was already wearing to show me. I didn't know what for since I was in a coma but damn I'm so touched. He is making me fall for him all over again.

        "It also has this hole on yours and a small pointy thing on mine that can only fit with your ring. Therefore, it's our life ring. It can only fit perfectly with the right ring." He said smiling to himself as he slips it into my finger. He held my hand tighter.

        "I hope you'll wake up soon. I miss you." He said getting up and giving my forehead a kiss. I felt it. His warm lips and his cool lipring. I felt it on my forehead. It was too much for me. Everything that happened.

        I couldn't take it anymore. I want to fight but I don't know how. I didn't know what to do so I left. I stood outside in the hall pacing back and forth trying to relax myself before I get an anxiety attack. Is that even possible since I'm a spirit? My thoughts were disturbed by a familiar voice, "Ch-charlotte?"

-Calum-

        I haven't visited Charlotte yet. I've came with Luke for the past three days but I didn't have the heart to see Charlotte. Especially in the condition she is in. I regret being so mean to her all this time. I really wish I could go back to that very day and be me. On second thought, I should see her. She might not be awake but it still counts. I'm owning up for my mistake and I'm going to apologize.

        I hope movies are telling the truth when they say that people who are in a coma still can hear everything around them. I was walking to her room thinking about what to say when I saw someone standing outside her room. A girl. Wait isn't that.. "Ch-charlotte?" She turned to me wide-eyed, "Y-you can see me?"

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