What if?

19. How?

-Calum-

        "Of course I can see you! And didn't you get into an accident? The hospital called Luke- Wait. Did you and Luke lie to me about all this because if you did I-" My hand just went through her. I wanted to give her a push but it went through her as if she was a ghost. Wait. No. This isn't happening. This is a dream right? Things like this don't happen.

        "Calum.. Calum! Don't freak out. I have no idea why you can see me but yes I am a spirit now. I'm currently in a coma but somehow I'm out of my body. But I don't get why you're the only one who can see me.." Charlotte said trying to calm me down.

        I was still freaking out let me tell you that. "B-but how? T-this is impossible." I stuttered. "I know. But it's pretty cool at the same time don't you think? I guess it's like a second chance for me you know? Like God is giving me a chance to choose whether to stay or just give everything up and go to Heaven. I mean.. I might have considered.." She said but I cut her, "No! You can't!" I said realizing that I probably looked like an idiot to everyone else talking to the air but I couldn't care less at this point.

        "You're still young Charlotte. There's still so much in the world for you to explore and learn about. I'm older than you by what.. two years? I still want to explore the world, don't you? I'm sure Luke would want you to explore the world with him too. Did you think about him?"

        "U-um.. I-I did, but I'm sure can live without me.. Many fishes in the sea.. I just.. My life is just complicated at the moment and I don't expect you to understand Calum. Yes, there are many things to look forward to in life but what I've experienced in the past.. It.. It ruined me. I-I don't know. I've told Luke about what happened in the past so I'm sure he'll understand if I choose to leave.." She said shrugging.

        "He might understand but for now I don't, and you're going to tell me. I want to know. Charlotte, you can't keep everything bottled up inside because one day it's going to destroy you. I've been in your position before, the reason why might not be the same but what we feel is. Let me tell you that telling someone is better than keeping everything to yourself. Whether or not I have any advice to give to you, letting it out is one way to lift the weight off your shoulders."

        Everything I'm saying is true. I remember that breakdown I had last year because the band was getting so much attention and I felt like our privacy was invaded way too much. I hated it. I just needed a little space you know? But I had the boys and my family behind me helping me through it all. I don't know about Charlotte but I'm sure she doesn't have the amount of support I had. I hope she knows that I'm here for her, Luke's here for her, Michael's here for her and I don't know if she has met Ashton yet but he will definitely be there for her too.

        "Then it isn't about Luke anymore. You want to know my story?" She asked and I nodded, leaning on the wall. She began, "Well, my family doesn't consist of the best people. They're pretty much the opposite. My dad left us and never came back, my brothers were controlling and my mum was always out of it. We weren't always this broken. We were a normal family, happy and living life when I was like 2 or 3 years old, but then everything changed after that. I would hear my parents screaming at each other every night. I couldn't understand what they were arguing about, all I remember was that it had something to do with money and being drunk I don't know but then one night my father got really angry and he just left us.."

        "He walked out the front door and just never came back. I honestly thought he would come back eventually. I would wait by the door for him, but I was wrong. 14 years later and I still have no idea where the fuck he is. But this isn't even the worst of it. Even when he was around, he wouldn't do anything to benefit the family. He would always say that my mum was spoiling my brothers and I, he would compare the things he didn't have back then and say that we had too much. He would expect so much of me, thinking that I was the 'perfect child'. Yeah right, some perfect child I turned out to be. I'm still better than he will ever be."

        Wow, I can't believe that someone like her would have a background so awful. I didn't expect it to be honest. Note to self ; Forever NEVER judge a book by it's cover.

        "As for my brothers, they were always telling me what to do and what not to do. From where to go after high school to how to live my life. My mum.. I don't know, she never really defended me. I knew she cared but she doesn't. She doesn't care enough. I don't know if she is like this because my dad left her but yeah I couldn't live that way any longer, so I moved out. After I finished high school, I took everything I needed and moved out from Florida to Chicago. I already sent my application to the University Of Chicago and I'm still waiting for the email to inform me if I got accepted or rejected. I got a job, worked my ass off and here I am, treating myself. Oh and my brothers are taking care of my mum and I send some money over to her for anything she needs it for.. Yeah.. I think that's just about it." she said playing with the hem of her shirt.

        After hearing her story, I felt so bad for being such a dick to her the first time we met. Asking her about her family and making fun of it thinking nothing could go wrong when everything could. Well, I came here to apologize in the first place and that's what I'm going to do.

        "Charlotte I'm-" "Just don't Calum. I don't want you to pity me because of my messed up past." She said cutting me. "Charlotte, I wasn't apologizing because I felt bad that you had to go through all that. You're really strong to have experienced it all and still make it here today. I wanted to apologize for how we met. I was in a bad mood that day and I thought why not let it out on someone? Just your luck, it was you. I was such a dick and I'm so sorry." I paused.

        "You're such an amazing person and you've been through so much. You deserve the best Charlotte, I know Luke can be an idiot sometimes but I promise you that when he loves someone, he loves with all his heart."

        "Thank you Calum, I really needed that. I wish I could hug you but I can't." She said laughing. Her laugh is amazing, now I understand why Luke fell for her in the first place. Bro code Calum. Bro code.

        "Hey, speaking of Luke? What did you guys do this whole time? Like before this? He seems a lot more happier these past few days." I asked curious. "I would tell you but you'd get bored and the nurses are looking at you weird." Looking at me weird? I looked over and yes they had this judgmental look on their faces. Do they not know about imaginary friends? Um.. Now I think about it yes it is very weird.

        "Uh do you mind if we go up to the roof? You know, get a little privacy? And I promise I won't get bored. Just imagine me as one of your 'girlfriends'." I said trying to convince her. She thought for a second before saying, "Why not?" Making me smile before leading the way to the roof.

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