What if?

17. Song

        After 8 long hours of surgery trying to get the internal bleeding in a part of my brain to stop and other problems in other parts of my body, I was finally pushed into the ICU. Watching people struggle so much trying to make sure I survive, it's really eye opening. I don't want to die, at least not yet. For now I'm going to do my best to wake up from this crazy nightmare.

        Me being in Australia meant that I didn't have any family so no one came to see me. I was all alone once again. I walked out of the ICU, being a spirit has perks too. You get to walk through everything. I was looking down at my bare feet, wondering if Luke would even bother to come when someone came bursting through the doors and running towards me- I mean the ICU, shouting my name. It was Luke. He came. Calum wasn't far behind him. He's here, he's in front of me. He looks so worried. I guess he really does care.. I wish I could tell him everything is going to be alright but I can't and I don't even know if everything will be..

        The nurses wouldn't let him in because he wasn't family. I could tell that he was going to snap at the nurse but he turned around and groaned in frustration. Calum tried to convince the nurses to let Luke in for just a couple of minutes claiming that he just 'needed to make sure that I was okay' but they wouldn't budge. Not long after that, Lindy and Paige came and they were shock to find Luke and Calum here before them. Lindy said that she was here to see me and told the nurses that I was here on vacation alone so I didn't have any family members to be here for me. With that, the nurses had no choice but to let Luke, Calum, Paige and Lindy in. One by one of course.

        The nurse told them that I was apparently in a coma so I could hear everything they say to me but I couldn't respond. Lindy came in first, walking slowly to the bed, tears in her eyes. She looked my body up and down then quickly grabbed my hand in hers, letting her tears pour as she started talking to me.

        "Why did we let you leave after you and Luke had that fight back at Starbucks? I'm so stupid. I'm so sorry Lottie I'm sorry." She kept apologizing but I had no idea what for. It wasn't her fault that I was in this state. After Lindy came Paige. She wasn't crying but I knew that she was crushed on the inside. She was always the kind of person to hide what she felt but I would know when she was sad. She would stay silent but still listen to whatever you had to say which exactly was what she was doing but now I couldn't say anything to her so the room was in complete silence. She held my hand mumbling a sorry softly before leaving.

        Next was Luke. I'm surprised he even showed up. I expected him to not give two shits about me whether or not I got into an accident. He was standing at the door just staring at my unconscious body. He ran his hand through his hair before letting out a deep groan. He said, "Why did this happen? Why you? I know you didn't kill yourself. It was some stupid drunk driver who thought that his phone was more important than the road. But of all people, he just had to hit you. Why? You don't deserve this." He said throwing his arms in the air, walking up to me- well, my body. He took my hand and I felt it. I could feel his warmth that I've missed over the past 24 hours.

        "Please wake up. I'm so sorry for freaking out on you and I forgive you Charlotte. I forgive you for not telling me sooner that you were scared. I forgive you for not telling me sooner that you loved me and I'm sorry for not telling you sooner that I loved you too. I love you. I really do, now please. Please wake up. Please." His voice cracked, tears running down his face.

        I stood there in shock trying to process his words. He loves me. He said he loves me. Oh how I wish I could say it back. I stared at him, inspecting his everything. His dark eye circles from not getting enough sleep, his hair messier than ever, his fingers red, probably from too much guitar playing. He plays his guitar whenever he's mad or sad about something. Writing a song or two or probably another album hahaha the band..

        They will be going back on tour again soon. Will he remember me when he leaves? What if he ends everything because long distance isn't how he wants it to be? I shouldn't be thinking about this right now. I should be appreciating that he actually cares enough to come and see me. I really truly love this boy from the bottom of my heart. I hope he really truly loves me too.

        "You know what? After our little misunderstanding at Starbucks, I went hope and poured my heart out.. I locked myself in my room, played the guitar and wrote lyrics. When I looked back at those words, I realized that it was about you. It was how I felt and feel about you." He said breaking my train of thoughts. "You wrote a song about me?" I said forgetting that he couldn't hear me.

        "I was so angry you didn't tell me what you were always so worried about so I crushed the paper and decided to disconnect myself from the world, from you. I fell asleep dreaming about what my world would be like without you. I woke up and realized that it was a nightmare. How awful it would be but I still couldn't forgive you I didn't know why." I looked at the ground feeling bad for not telling Luke sooner.

        "But then Calum came over, I know you guys hate each other but he was the one that made me see clearer. Clearer than I've ever seen in my whole life. He made me see that I was in love with you. He made me see how much you actually mean to me. We were actually coming to see you when we got stuck in traffic because of some accident. I answered my phone to find out that you were in that accident. My heart shattered. I thought to myself, 'I can't lose you. Not now, not ever.' I can't lose you Charlotte. Please please please come back to me."

        I stood there with tears running down my face. "I wish I could come back Luke, I really do. I just wish I knew how.."

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Hi my little aliens! I haven't updated and none of you asked for one. Wow okay that sounds sad but yes I'm sad :( but here's an update and the picture sorta kinda reminds me of Luke. Tell me I'm not the only one who thinks so. Also! I will be starting college next month. Nervous? Yes. Very. I don't know what to expect. I hope it turns out okay. Anyways hope you like this chapter! Tweet me! :-) @Gelyn_lyn