Walang Forever

Chapter 34

«Drake»

Here I am now. At the Ice Cream House, alone. 

The scene before I ended up here keeps playing on my mind. Our very first arguement. How she left the table. How she left me and her ice cream.

I don't want her to leave. I just want her to stay here. Ayokong mag-aral sya abroad. That's a natural reaction when someone you love chose to leave. Ganun din naman yung reaksyon nya nung iniwan sya ni Gene eh. Pero kung gusto naman nya talaga wala naman akong magagawa. Bakit ba hindi nya maintindihan yon? Hay, I can't understand girls at all. Buti pa yung statistics mas madaling intindihin. But right now. I am giving up on her.
Isa pang bagay, I can't believe I pushed Sir Gene to make things right between Ranielle and him. Ano bang nangyayari sakin? Kasi naman eh, pinilit ko pa si Rainielle sakin eh. Ayan tuloy ako din ang nagdudusa ngayon. Kung ano-ano na tuloy ang naiisip ko. 

Hindi ko din alam kung ano ng nangyayari sakanilang dalawa. Maghihintay pa ba ko kay Ranielle? After all this time, explanation lang naman ang hinihingi nya kay Gene. Kung marinig nya yung explanation na yun, is she going to be satisfied? Is she going to go back to Gene?
Packing Tape. Sasabog na ang utak ko kakaisip. Maybe I should go home instead. Maybe I just need some rest and I'll be fine.

I stood up from my chair and left the place. Pagkauwi ko, sinalubong na agad ako ni Jayron.

"Tol, kanina pa kita inaantay." He said.

"Bakit?" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Akala ko kasi kasama mo si Baby Sis. Asan kaya yung babaeng yun? Mom's getting furious." He explained.

Another knife of guilt just stabbed my chest. What should I tell him? That she's with Gene? 

"I'll call her." I suggested.

"Wala rin. We tried to call her for 15 times." Jarid said.

But I called her anyway. I don't want to think. I just wanted to do whatever I feel like doing.

I place my phone next to my left ear. Her phone rang and in a few more seconds she picked up.

"Ranielle?" I started.
Napatingin agad sakin si Jayron.

"I'm sorry..." She said. 

"For what? Hinahanap kana na ng mama mo. Jayron's here. Kakausapin ka—"

But she cut through.

"I know."

I purse my lips.

"There's something I have to tell you." She added.

 I don't want to listen anymore. I don't want to hear her decisions. Everytime she decides, it made me feel worse.

"Okay."  I tried to act like before.
She'll never know what I feel if I acted this way.

"Ibigay mo muna yung phone kay kuya." She ordered and I did what she told me. I handed the phone to Jayron.

"Hello? Baby sis? Sige, ingat ka. Sasabihin ko kay mama." Ibinalik nya agad yung phone sakin.

"Uuwi na daw sya. Sige, una na ko tol. Pasensya na sa abala." 

I nodded at him and smiled.

As I place my phone next to my ear I can hear Ranielle murmuring from the other line. It's like she's talking to someone about something na ayaw nilang iparinig sakin.

I hung the phone. 

I am Drake Sawyer. People see me as an easy-going person, incompetent, walang kasiguraduhan sa buhay, hindi nag seseryoso at higit sa lahat childish. But I get hurt too, like Ranielle, like everybody else. Hindi nila nakikita yung weaknesses ko, but that doesn't mean I don't have one.

I shove my phone inside my pocket and headed to my room.

Didn't I told you Ranielle? Sabihin mo na lahat wag ka lang makikipag break sakin. Hindi ka ba nakikinig?
Bakit ba hindi ako nanalo kay Gene? Anong meron ba sa taong yun? This is unfair. 

I let myself fall to my bed and fell asleep.