Snow

Chapter Thirty Eight

I had a pretty good idea of where Andy was taking me for our anniversary, but I didn't tell him that. If he wanted to surprise me, then I would damn well act surprised. I did everything he asked: from covering my ears with my hands, to looking away when he showed our tickets. When we got on the plane, however, he looked like he was ready to burst from excitement. "Can I tell you where we're going?" He asked with wide eyes and a pout.

I laughed and rolled my eyes, "You were the one who said it had to be a surprise." He continued to look at me with that strangely cute puppy dog face, and I laughed again. "Go for it, but don't complain afterwards." His pout transformed into a bright smile and I gestured for him to speak.

"What? Oh!" He laughed, looking adorably childish as he bounced in his seat, unable to sit still. "Guess." I just gestured for him to tell me, smiling at the excitement clear on his face. "Okay, okay." He sucked in a breath, struggling to resist the temptation of blurting it out. When he finally gave in and told me, I feigned surprise. "We're going back to the villa in Hawaii."

"Holy crap, Andy!" I all but yelled, morphing my expression into one of shock rather than laughing at how oblivious he thought I was. "Seriously?" He smiled proudly and nodded, biting his lip with what was obviously more news. "What? What aren't you telling me?" I demanded, actually unsure this time around.

"Remember the plans we made just before we left the first time?" He said slowly, dragging it out with a smirk as I nodded impatiently. "Well, we're half way there."

My eyes widened in surprise, remembering what we'd planned out before leaving. "We said we'd move there when we're old..." I said, trying to remember what else we'd thought of. "And that we'd have kids, and if not, we'd steal Willow." I laughed when I realized we were more than half way. "We've got Will, I'm pregnant, and... you bought it, didn't you?" I said knowingly.

He avoided my eyes but nodded, smiling sheepishly as he placed his hand on my stomach. "Give it a few more years, and we can complete the plans." I laughed and rested my head on his shoulder, breathing deeply as my hand covered his where it lay on my stomach.

"What's gonna happen now, Andy?" I breathed out, looking at our intertwined fingers with a small smile. "We'll have Willow, we'll have the little one, and we'll have our careers. How do we balance it all?" This was the one thing that had been a constant worry for me, but I'd kept it to myself. "It'll be even harder now with both of us doing solo stuff." We were both producing music and planning tours outside of the things we did with our bands, which meant that we spent even more time and effort on our jobs.

"We'll manage, Lala. We always do." He murmured, pressing a kiss to my temple as I tapped out a beat on his thigh. "We'll work around it - we'll cut down on the time we spend touring. There's not really much else we can do." I bit my lip, pulling my lip ring into my mouth with a small sigh.

"What if we can't balance it - what if we have to choose?" We both knew what question was coming next, but I asked it anyways. "If you had to choose between your music and your family, what would you pick?" It was cruel, I know, but I was curious. The question had been eating at me since we'd found out I was pregnant, and I wanted to know which was his priority: me and the kids, or his fans and music.

"You, Kota, and little lego." He murmured as though it was obvious. "You three mean so much more than anything else, even without knowing little lego." He'd taken to calling the baby 'little lego' after finding out that, when I was at two months, the foetus was roughly the same size as a small piece of lego. "But we'll know them soon - soon enough, he'll be born and we'll be able to raise a child of our own."

I frowned at that, unsure of what he thought of Willow. "We need to sort the adoption papers," was all I said, not wanting to create any unnecessary tension. "Willow's our daughter with or without the papers, but I want it all settled." He nodded and pressed another kiss to my temple.