Daddy Ash [ a.f.i ]

chapter twenty-two

***currently in the bathtub, reading and writing. give me stories to read pls. :) ***

Jade's POV

"W-What?"

"I love you."

"Are you just saying that so I won't kill myself?"

"No, I'm serious. All I've wanted to do is hate you, but this over powering sense of love is pushing the hate away."

Ashton reaches his hand out to touch my face but I cower down and back away. Causing heart ache to take over his emotions.

"I've hurt you so bad that you don't even trust me, how could you love me? I'm a monster."

"I don't know." I look deeply into his hazel orbs, feeling every emotion he is.

Pain is what he's feeling the most, so I pick up his hand and gently press it against my cheek.

"I can't forgive you for what you've done in this moment, but soon enough I will. You need to work on yourself while I do the same and maybe we can start over." I explain to him, recieving a nod.

"Now I'm going to leave, and I expect to come back soon so we can hang out or something. So you have to keep your head up ash."

"Okay kitt- I mean Jade."

"If it makes you feel better I'll let you call my kitten still."

I receive a half smile and soft chuckle from him, knowing that's my true name for him.

"Good night Ashton."

"Good night." he whispers as I walk out of his room, weight lifting off my shoulders as well as the apartment.

I open the front door to see Luke waiting.

"Well?"

"I think he'll be okay. Just watch him please?"

"Of course."

We go back down to the car and hop in so Luke can take me back to Calums.

When we arrive Michael is waiting outside for me.

"Thank you." Luke says

"No thank you."

We give each other a smile and I get out, walking up the lawn to meet Michael.

"Where did you go?"

"I had to do something. it was urgent."

"Oh."

We get inside and lay back down, my eyes falling heavy from lack of sleep.

"Did you go see him." Michael presses on.

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Luke was worried that he was going to kill himself and he was until I took the pills from him."

Michael falls silent at my words, causing me to break a little more inside as I replay that scene.

Finally Michael falls asleep as I lay in bed, wide awake yet so exhausted.

it's 6 a.m now, what's the use in sleeping?

I grab my things and leave the hood residence. No explanation to anyone, I just left. I walk back to my apartment, when I get inside I'm greeted by my little pup.

"Hi Jasper."

I receive a bark and a tail wag in response.

I lay on my couch and let my thoughts take over my emotions. I begin sobbing to the point where I get sick.

Jasper lays in the floor in the bedroom as I hug the toilet. He whines as he sees me getting sick.

I sit back and wipe my face off with a towel,

"It's okay baby, come here."

I pat my thigh and he comes running over, kissing me and showing me affection in my most vulnerable state.

My phone dings next to me with a text.

from: ash

hey, I'm just checking on you and letting you know I'm okay. sorry if I'm bothering you, but I wanted to thank you for last night.

to: ash

hi, I'm okay. just not feeling well, I probably have a bug. you're welcome though.

I sit back and let a deep breath out as another text comes through my phone.

from: ash

do you need me to bring you something? like soup?

to: ash

um sure, that'd be nice :)

I totally lied about having a bug but it's nice that he's doing that for me. It's different.

I get up, put fresh clothes on and take Jasper outside to use the bathroom.

Just as he finishes peeing on a bush Ashton rolls up in his car. He gets out, wearing his sweatpants and band tee with messy hair.

He always looks the best to me when he's being lazy.

I pick Jasper up and wave at him as he walks over with a bag in his hand.

"Gotcha some chicken noodle soup." he gives me a half smile as i return one.

"Thank you. We can go inside of you want?" I suggest to him as he nods.

We get upstairs and settle back down, I eat my soup as I let him find something to watch one Netflix.

"Have you ever watched orange is the new black?" he asks

"No, I want to but I just keep forgetting to watch it." I let out a soft laugh.

"Well we can binge watch it then." he laughs and smiles a bit.

I like when he unexpectedly smiles, it shows his real side. Not the hard ass that he tries to be all the time.

As soon as the show starts we see boobs and Ashton suddenly gets uncomfortable. It was a little shocking to me as well but I have a set so it's nothing I haven't seen before.

Ashton shifts around a lot as the show goes on, more nudity and sexual scenes pop up unexpectedly.

"Are you okay?" I look over at him sinceraly concerned when I look down and see a slight budge in his pants.

"Uh, maybe this show was a bad idea." he nervously laughs and scratches the back of his neck. He then pulls a pillow over his lap to cover himself.

I quickly shit the tv off and clean up my mess.

"Uh.." I start to say not sure of how to make him anymore comfortable.

I mean I don't want to say 'the bathroom is over there' so he can fix his problems, but I also don't want to make him think that I'm over everything by "doing things".

"I uh.. shit." he grunts as he tries to figure something out.

"Can I use the bathroom?" he turns red in the face when he asks me.

I nod softly as he gets up with the pillow still over his lap as he runs to my bathroom.

"Well Jasper do you need to potty again?"