StarWars Shadows of the past (revising + adding)

Chapter 14

Several hours later Luke awoke next to Ulonna, she had rolled onto her other side with her back to him. His first impulse, was to check her wound. When he touched her back she opened her eyes. She rolled over to face him.

"I asked them to leave me here. I hope you don't mind." he said.

"I don't." She whispered

"Looks like it healed," he said trying to make conversation. The situation that they were in laying there together, proved hard to control. He wanted to just let go, but he just laid there, with his hand holding his head up.

"I'll be fine now. Thank you." She turned to stare at the ceiling. She was feeling the same urge to let go. Luke was watching her face trying to maintain control and then he sat up. His heart was racing and he knew if he remained laying there he would give into it.

"What is it?" she asked knowing full well what he was feeling. He said nothing, but sat there forcing everything down. "You're not still angry are you?" she asked "I can't read you right now," she said finally getting his attention and she knew she had because he turned.

"I never should have thought that of you," He whispered. Ulonna kept looking away. "Ryessa, I...."

"Why did you say what you said on Coruscont? Why did you forbid us?" She asked cutting him off, but Luke didn't let her finish her sentence.

"That was for the teenagers. At this age they have no sense of control in this matter," he breathed. Ulonna sat up.

"And you do?" she whispered. Luke looked away and he closed his eyes. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that."

"No, you are right." He said opening them. "That's why I said it. You have your whole life ahead of you, I don't want you to waste it on me." Ulonna sat there looking at his face. "I am you're Master, I can't get involved with you like this. It just wouldn't be right."

"Why, because I look like Mara?" she questioned.

"No, that has nothing to do with it. This is not your fault. I started this and I need to put an end to it, so." He hesitated for a moment and then went on. "You deserve better. Someone younger and that can keep up with you. Me, I'm still married to the past."

"Luke, how......"

"Please," he said cutting her off again. "Please don't make this harder than it is. This is taking every ounce I have to resist," he admitted. Ulonna's eyes widened and a painful look flash across her face.

"Oh Luke, forgive me I didn't realize. This is Polarus. It has to be... I need to leave." She said standing up. Luke grabbed her wrist.

"Wait, wait, what are you talking about?"

"Polarus," she said plainly, knowing full well that he didn't know what it meant.

"Okay you lost me, what is this Polarus?" he questioned. Ulonna hesitated for a moment.

"It's the Zenoben word for Pheromone."

"Pheromone!" he exclaimed. Ulonna let out a loud sigh.

"My body creates it. It's always been a problem. I don't have relationships because they are always under that influence. They're never real."

"So you think that this isn't real?"

"I don't know. From past experiences, you don't act like it, but you just said that you're trying to fight it. So it has to be," she said. He thought for a moment.