So Much Better

Limits.

"August! Just get here already and stop making fun of me." I said into the phone.
"Fine. Open the door."
"Haha. I'm being serious."

There was a knock on the door.

"Yeah me too." I could hear an echo in his voice.
"Oh my gosh."

I jumped from the bed and ran to the door opening it to see him standing there with a box of chocolate in his hand. I straight faced him and took the box from his hand walking away from him.

"Shit."

Thank God he's alright. I exhaled.

"You not gonna look at me?"
"No." I said walking out to the balcony.
"You sure 'bout that?"

I didn't answer him.

"Alright." He said and by the tone of his voice its like I could see him put his hands up and let them fall to his sides.

I didn't hear anything and looked behind him to see him going through a bag over the bed. I chuckled and went over to him.

I hugged him and he stayed serious I kissed him over and over again not letting him reach for the bag.

"Go on man." He said between a chuckle.
" No..." I said hugging him again. "kiss me..."I said kissing his jawline.

He laughed leaning towards me.

"You a trip."
"No I'm not."

He sat on the bed and put his hands over his face and pulled on his hair.

I pulled his hands away and smiled at him.

"I'm sorry."
"You better not do that again."

I nodded.

"The fcuk did I even do for you to not talk to me?" He said stressing out.
"I'm sorry."
"That's foul men." He exhaled getting up.
"August. I overreacted I'm sorry."
"It's coo'." He said going into the bathroom.

I sat on the bed and took another chocolate before laying back.

"Screw up."

I unbuttoned my shirt and pulled it out of my skirt and threw it on the floor looking around the room for the remote.

I found it and laid on my tummy over the bed. I channel surfed until I found a movie was starting.

I looked again at the bathroom door and the shower was still on.

I called for some food so he'd eat before going to bed and waited a little so I could take care of him.

The door rang and I peeped through the magic eye before I opened to let the stroller in. I closed the door after thanking the man and he left.

It had been over an hour and the water was still running. I knocked on the door and the water went off.

"What?"
"Dinner is here."
"I'a be right out."
"Okay baby."

I sat back on the bed waiting and he came back in basketball shorts drying his hair off in a towel.

He walked over to the stroller and sat on the chair in the far corner of the room eating.

I got up and massaged his shoulder while he ate and he flexed his shoulder to relieve the tension on his body.

I went around and sat on his lap. I took the plate on his hands and smiled.

"You didn't eat yet?"
"I'm good."

He raised his eyebrows in response for a moment and looked down.

I got off his lap and pulled him off the chair and made him sit against the headboard.

I straddled him and fed him the rest of his plate.

He let his hands rest on my sides and closed his eyes chewing.

"Wanna talk about what happened?"
"No." He said shaking his head
"You just wanna get some sleep huh?"

He nodded. My back was starting to ache so I flexed my shoulders and shifted in his lap and I opened my eyes to find his focused on me.

"You're a danger to my sanity."

He said gripping my thighs.

I put the plate on the nightstand and we took each other in a hungry kiss. He laid over me on the bed...

It was us touching everywhere.
Us kissing everywhere.
Us not wanting to go anywhere. Heat.

When he hooked his finger on my underwear, he jumped away.

I closed my eyes and exhaled, getting my thoughts together before sitting up.

"I'm sorry. It's not-."

I shook my head. 

"You don't need to explain yourself."

I said clasping my bra back on suddenly feeling like I had too little on, a grotesque difference from just a minute ago.

"Especially not to me."

It's not like I mean something to you. At least not like that.
  I thought to myself going out to the balcony putting on the robe I was wearing earlier.

I closed it around myself and exhaled closing my eyes letting the chilly wind brush against me.

"Iza." I heard him say from afar.
"You get some rest I'll be right in." I said over my shoulder but my voice failed me.

A tear prickled down my face and I wiped it off quickly, blinking to stop the rest.

"Baybeh." He said coming out to the balcony.

He hugged me from behind holding me tight and I wiggled out of his grasp trying to free myself.

"Let go." I said pushing him away.
I pushed him in the room and closed the balcony door.

I let out a tight sob before I pointed at him saying

"Stay in there!"

He looked at me not knowing what to do.

I turned away from him and leaned on the railing crying. I put my hands over my face holding it in before I couldn't anymore and I sat on the chair and closed my eyes comforting myself...

I stood up after I felt like I could do it without sobbing.

I wiped the tears off my face and breathed. I opened the door and he got up from the bed and came closer to me and I pushed him away not looking in his face.

"Stop pushing me away."
"August let go of me." I said trying to free myself.
"You're not gonna go back to the shell you were in" He said lowering to look at me in the eye.

I felt the tears slip down my face and looked away embarrassed.