So Much Better

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A month has gone by, August and I have been cool, I go to work, when I come back some nights he's here others he isn't.
He started distancing himself slowly thinking I didn't notice. Some nights he'd kiss me and hug me others he'd barely acknowledge me.
Not that I cared. Really... I gave all of me to niggas before. Never ended well, so if he wanna be affectionate every other day, let him.
Trey is there being sweet and caring every day so I don't care... We been texting a lot. What ever the future has in store for me will only be taken if a man is involved. I'm not about to take another weak nigga to stand by me.

This is me rebuilding myself. I won't make mistakes I've made before.

I got off the shower throwing on sweats and a tank top going into the fridge for some ice-cream.
My phone rang and I picked it up.

"Alô?"
"Hello Rio. You answer the damn phone saying Hello."
"Kelly. Go'n with that!" I laughed.
"What's up? We ain't talk sice last week."
"Nothing much. About to dig into some ice-cream."
"Hmm.."
"Spill it Kelly."
"I have a date on Friday."
"That's tomorrow."
"Right."
"What's his name?"
"Jidenna."
" What does he do for a living?"
"Singer, Poet, Activist, Fashion Oriented, Black Red head fine ass."
"Haha. Sound like someone is ready to give it up."
"But I don't wanna look easy."
"I moved into your brothers house without knowing who he was.Not the best to give you advice."
"But that turned out good."

I kissed my teeth.

"Anyway, how do you wanna look?"
"I wanna look fierce."
"Burgundy lipstick. Don't talk. Don't move. You'll look perfect."

She laughed.

"I wish I was you."
"No you don't."
" Yes I do, damsel saved by Robin Hood. Who's enchanted by her mysterious ways and shit."
" And shit." I laughed. " So damn ghetto."

August got home and sunk on the couch beside me.

"August just got here."
"Imma let you go we'll talk tomorrow when I start getting ready."
"Alright."
" Say hi to him for me."

"Kelly says hi."

He nodded.

"He said hi back."

He took the ice cream and ate it while I finished the call with Kelly.

I took the bucket and groaned.

"Now I gotta wash the spoon. Don't know where your lips have been last." I said as he hugged up on me.
"On yours. Damn." He said letting me go.

I got up looking at him and looked down trying to shake off the embarrassment that came over me.

I went into the kitchen and soon enough I heard his door close.

August

So damn difficult! The hell does she want me to do!?
I'm good and caring she thinks I want something.
I'm distant and she acts like I never show her affection.

I thought to myself coming off my suit to take a shower.

I did and stepped out of my room to make myself a sandwich before bed. Except it was ready with a cup of juice and another one of Hennessey beside it.

She stood off to the side still eating her ice cream.

I sat on the stool letting out a thank you under my breath.

"Thank you." She said looking at me. " I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you."
" I'on want your apologies ma."

She looked down.