Don't Leave Me Alone | TØP

Chapter 2 // Tyler

We entered to the nearest Starbucks in town. Is kinda late but we managed to order something.

Josh ordered a Frappuccino and I ordered something to eat. We ate in silence, something weird was going. We don't usually eat without talking.

I try to break the silence between us.

"Are you sure you feel okay?" I ask Josh.

He stops drinking his Frappuccino and nods. I raise an eyebrow.

"Josh, please."

"I'm being serious." He leaves his drink aside. "I'm okay. There's nothing wrong with me."

He rubs his red dyed hair and looks away.

"You can't sleep, you look nervous, you seem to be thinking about other things, and you don't talk. Don't you think I should be concerned?" I try to stay calm but I'm pretty sure that sounded rude.

Josh sighs after a couple of minutes of silence. He looks at me and looks worried now.

"I've a strange feeling something's gonna happen. Something bad." He bites his lip. "And I don't know what it is, or what's gonna happen, and I'm trying to ignore that feeling but it gets stronger every time."

I blink fast, still concerned.

"Like..." I don't want to say that word, but I say it anyway. "death?"

Josh gulps and then nods.

"Probably."

I let out a long sigh. I can't believe in him, and I don't know why.

"Listen, Josh, you're probably just tired, and I'm tired too. We should go now and try to sleep." I shrug. "You probably just need some rest."

"Huh?" Josh shakes his head. "What are you talking about? Why don't you believe me?"

"Trust me, I want to believe you but I can't." I've to admit it, this is scaring me.

Josh sighs heavily.

"You're supposed to believe in me, Tyler. You're my best friend. Something is gonna happen and I'm scared."

"I'm scared too." I raise my voice a bit. "But a minute ago you told me you were 'okay', so if you want to be okay now we should go back to the bus and forget about all of this. You just need to rest."

There's another long silence between us. Josh blinks fast, I'm pretty sure his trying to hold back the tears and that makes me feel terrible.

"I'm sorry, Josh." I shake my head.'

Josh looks directly at me. I can tell his angry now.

"You don't usually act like this, Tyler. You're supposed to help me."

"I can't help you. I don't know what's going on."

"Yes you do!" He slams his fist in the table. "I just told you."

"But how am I supposed to help you?" I'm trying to ignore the concerned looks on the baristas' faces.

Josh snorts. I'm not sure if he's going to be sarcastic or rude.

"If I was one of our fans, you would probably help me."

That was rude, definetly. That's not the Josh I know.

"Don't say that." I'm burning in rage, but I'm actually scared. "The Clique has nothing to do with this."

He seems angrier now.

"Everyone thinks you're a hero, Tyler. Why don't you just help me then?"

I say nothing for a while, trying to avoid Josh's angry look.

"Oh, now I see. You don't want to help me because you don't 'believe me'. And you call yourself my best friend." Josh says, snorting again.

"I want to help you, Josh, but I don't know how." I would never hurt him, but right now I want to hit him with a chair. Why is he being so rude?

Josh rolls his eyes.

"You know what? Nevermind. I'm just going to pretend this never happened. I'm going to pretend you're not here."

I'm so mad at him, I can't just pretend we didn't have this conversation.

"Great." I say after a while.

But is not great.

He smirks. "Great, now let's go back to the b-"

"You know what?" I explode. "You have no fucking right to be mad at me and the Clique for something stupid as your 'strange feeling'. I can't and I won't, I repeat, I won't, help you. I've worse problems to deal with."

Josh shakes his head.

"Fight me then."

"I'll fight you, but I don't want to make a scene here."

"You're a coward."

"Maybe I am, but I don't care."

"You only care about your problems."

"That's not true."

"Yes it is, you only care about the music you write."

"That music has saved lives."

"But you don't seem to care about the Clique, right?"

"Shut up, Josh."

"You don't care about Jenna and you don't care about me."

"I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I suddenly stand up, noticing how everyone in this place stares at me.

Josh looks away, realizing what he just said. I sigh and make my way to the door. I feel terrible now, I'm didn't want to scream at him but I felt attacked. I had no choice.

I'm about to open the door when I hear Josh say something.

"If you leave this place, Tyler Joseph, I swear I won't be your best friend anymore."

I try not to look at him.

"Nice." That's the last thing I say before leave.

(Edited 06/14/16)