unconditionally perplexed | 1

viii.

you have no

idea

how much it

relieved

me

when i saw you

sitting

with my friends,

smiling,

laughing.

it felt

weird

loving you from afar;

more like,

loving you in general.

i thought i

only liked

boys,

but then you came along.

every time you spoke

i had to resist the urge

to kiss you.

i couldn't tell anyone,

in fear

of them shutting me out.

so

i shut

them

out.

you were so beautiful.

your eyes.

your nose.

your lips.

your face.

your hair.

i was in deep.