unconditionally perplexed | 1

xv.

i didn't

want to

push you away

the way i did

with most of our friends,

so

instead,

i told you about it

when i felt ready.

you didn't interrupt,

you let me keep going.

the flow

was undisturbed

all throughout.

you felt horrible

and

selfishly enough,

i was glad.

i'm a

s i c k

person.

i

e n j o y

the worry i cause

others.

and you know what else is so

f u c k e d u p ?

i can't seem to get

e n o u g h .