unconditionally perplexed | 1

xii.

the risk was

always

there.

as time passed,

it actually increased.

there were times

when i was with you

that i felt

overwhelmed.

overwhelmed

by the number

of people you knew.

i wasn't fond of most of them

but i said nothing

for

your sake.

through the laughs,

through the lighthearted jokes,

i fell harder and faster for you each day,

daisy.

i felt like someone

had grabbed

a sledgehammer

and

smashed my heart repeatedly with it.

on top of that,

slapped me

upside the head.

"she's as straight as that pipe lining, alex"

my subconscious said to me,

shaking her head in disappointment

when she realized

how

lovesick

i was.

but still..

i couldn't help it.

you're beautiful, daisy.

i just wish you knew.

that would make

my suffering

a little more

tolerable,

at least.

now i know

why people say

that

love

h u r t s .