You Only Love Once #1: BTOB Sungjae ✔

Chapter 10

Sungjae's POV

"Yah, why are you arriving just now? You know that they'll be checking the dorms in a few minutes. Do you want us to be in tro-" Changsub stopped when he finally decided to look at me. "What happened? Why are you so wet? Do you want to get sick?" He asked.

I swallowed and looking straight ahead instead of him, I said, "Please, don't ask me questions. Not now."

"What's wrong with him?" I heard Peniel ask before I go in the bathroom.

I sighed and took my wet jacket and clothes before I get a cold. After staring at myself across the mirror for a few seconds, I decided to take a warm shower.

I turned on the shower but I wasn't really doing anything because I feel too numb to even move a bit. I silently felt my tears falling along with the water coming from the shower. I never thought I would hurt this much. The feeling that I'm hurting so much inside that I could even feel it physically... it hurts my heart so much.

It hurts to think that I could lose the person that made me feel so special anytime.

I didn't feel any better after the shower so I just laid in bed, but Changsub called me.

"Yah, come here, let's talk." He said.

"No... I don't want to..." I replied.

He sighed. "Come here, let's drink."

I looked at him. "Stop kidding."

"I bought cans while you were on shower after the daily check of the dorm." Peniel said.

"Are you crazy? What if you get caught? How the heck-"

"I'm 19, I can buy whatever I want now." He said.

I sighed and drank with them quietly.

"Tell us what's wrong, whenever you're ready." Changsub said.

"Guys," I called and smiled bitterly. "Why is it when you're finally happy, life takes it away leaving you hanging?"

They both looked at each other strangely. I chuckled. "Nevermind." I said.

"Sungjae-ah, if it's something that makes you happy, don't ever let life completely take it away. Fight for it." Changsub said and drank.

"But..." I said suddenly feeling a lump in my throat and a water forming in my eyes. "What should I do if I already lost even before I fight?"

"Yah, life is like playing League of Legends. Sometimes you lose, sometimes you win but the game goes on. And even if you have lost, the important thing is to never give up." Peniel said in his sleepy voice.

Changsub pat my shoulder. "I don't know much and what's going on with you, but whenever you need to talk or any help, we're just here for you."

Peniel chuckled. "Yeah, pabo-ah, let's go to sleep."

I gave them a small smile. "Thank you."

"But... are you running out of cash?" Peniel asked.

"What? Perhaps..." My eyes widened. "Did you guys take my wallet again?!" I asked.

Changsub and him looked at each other before running to their beds. "1... 2... let's go!" They screamed.

Somehow I felt a bit better, but sun still doesn't shine. I went to bed but I just think, think, and think more until I felt so tired and fell asleep.

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I smiled and put Sohyun in bed. I'm glad she is better now. "Sleep well, beautiful." I said and kissed her forehead.