You Only Love Once #1: BTOB Sungjae ✔

Chapter 11

Sohyun's POV

Our conversation was cut off when the teacher said five minutes are over.
We all went back to our seats. I wiped my tears away and waited for the class to be dismissed.

What should I do? Last night, I was just so sure that I did the right thing but now... I'm just so confused whether to follow my heart or my brain. Heart vs. brain? It's a tough battle.

Let's not waste time being afraid anymore...

Let's be happy together... let's fight this together...

Those words keep echoing in my mind while I was walking around the school during break time.

I know deep inside me that he is right. That's why... I'm going to follow my heart this time and talk to him. I need to talk to him so I can ease the doubt I feel inside me.

I took a deep breath and stopped in front of the rooftop door. I stepped in and I immediately saw him sitting alone on the ground. I walked quietly as I look at his back facing my direction.

I sat beside him and looked up the beautiful blue skies like what he does.

I felt him turn his head to me and smiled. "You came?"

I nodded. "I wanna talk to you."

"Did you think about it?"

I nodded again. "But... Sungjae..." I took a deep breath and looked at him. "It's going to be hard. Really hard. I'm afraid of how you would feel in the end..."

He takes my hand and hold it tightly with his. "I've never been so scared to lose something or someone in my life, but then I realized, nothing in my life has ever mattered as much as you do to me. I know it'll be hard, I know I might feel like dying... but it's okay because you'll be here. You're beside me."

"But... Sungjae-ah, I've stopped my regular checkup for a while. I was ready and was preparing myself until you came... I'm dying but I want to live because of you. Because I want to be with you until we're old enough." There's the strangling feeling in my heart again as I speak those words.

He wrapped his arms around me and said, "No, you'll get treatment again. It's possible. My aunt is a great doctor. She will do her best to make you better." He said.

"I'm... very sick. I'm also narcoleptic."

"Narcoleptic?"

I nodded. "It's better to tell you now. I take medicines to avoid it. It's a sickness in which I have no control of what time I would fall asleep unless I take medicines in time."

"Is that why you..." He stopped in the middle of his words, thinking.

I nodded again. "It's why I fall asleep even in unnecessary times."

He tightens his grip on my hand again. "That didn't change anything. I'm willing to wake you up every day, every morning. I will wake you up whenever you fall asleep to the world. I'll be here until you get better."

I smiled and touched his cheek. "What good thing did I ever do to have you?" I asked.

He holds my hand that's on his cheek and kissed the top of it. "Please promise me you'll fight it with me."

I nodded. "I will..."

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Sungjae's POV

Every morning in the next few days, I wake up to call Sohyun on the phone and make sure she is awake.

"I wanted to sleep more." She said.