To end my book I decided to write a letter. I wrote the letter mainly for myself to make sure I am finnished with him and can continue on with my life. But the end is to help anyone and everyone who is in my position.
So here it is.
365 days seems like a lot of time but you don't know the half of it. You influenced my life for 3 years. I spent 165 days getting to know you and then 200 without you. The next year I spent 165 days in love with you, 93 days missing you and wanting to see you asap and lastly 7 days wishing you were lying and I was living in a nightmare. For my last year I spent 123 days loving you, and every other day realizing you were not the one. You took three years of my life.
At one point the 165 days I spent loving you were the best days of my life. Having you as my best friend I knew you were always there for me, and you saw me in every way possible ( a friend, a mate, a sister...) I thought you might have been the one back then. I look back on those days now and think wow how did I not see this comming. There was no warning for what you did to me. I thought I could trust you.
I told you everything about myself and you can't even remember the first thing about me. It is like you have amnesia and just forgot everything between us. Now you are obsessed with her.
You had a chance and you blew it. I am done with this. Only 1 1/2 more years at the trailer and I will be gone to university. So goodbye Nick.
I want to tell ever person who reads this the truth about love. Love is not fun. You will be a nervous wreck, have your heart broken, and sometimes it will even effect your friends. The truth is that love isn't like in those princess movies that we all watched as kids. Life does not make love easy, being in love doesn't always go as planned and it is never perfect. But if you are lucky enough to make it work for awhile it is the best feeling in the world and it is indescribable. Trust me if you are anything like me and don't even have a little relationship until you are 15/16 you aren't missing out on much. Everyone makes relationships sound so great and that everyone needs to be in one but you don't. School, sports, friends, and family are much more important. So don't worry about boys cause some day Mr. Right will just fall into your life and things will work out but for now don't worry about it. So learn from my mistakes and I wish you good luck when you find the right guy.♡♡♡
