It was halfway through camping season when my friend Allie came down from Nova Scotia and spent some time at the campground. The last time she was there was my first year of camping and a lot had changed since then. I told her about Nick and how I had been feeling, about how he just forgot about us before camping... and that's when she gave me advice. She told me to tell him how I feel then either something will happen between us or I can move on. I debated and didn't want to but finally Sunday night I told him
I tried to tell him face to face but everytime I tried to he said he had to go or he couldn't talk right now so I waited till that night and texted it to him. " I need to talk to you" I said. There was no reply. " I need to tell you something... I kinda like you". Moments later he replied "Is this Shianna. Is this a prank cause it's not funny" he said. "No its me. I had to tell you the truth. I have been holding it in for so long I needed to get it out so I knew if you liked me or not". He responded by saying "Fun. Anyways gtg at Baileys trailer and we are watching a movie. Bye." I didn't even answer. He was supposed to be my friend. I wanted to punch him in the face because I hated the fact that he didn't like me back but because he was my best friend I wanted him to come help me get over this and I wanted his shoulder to cry on. Now I had no one's shoulder to cry on.
I thought it would get better the next day but it didn't. He just talked about Bailey. He wouldn't even look at me and the only time he would talk around me was if I was in a group.
A few weekends later he just randomly came to the park when I was there with Serena. I didn't want to talk to that jerk face bit he looks like he wanted to talk to me. I didn't want to make things "cool" between us and just go back to being friends cause I couldn't deal with him talking about Bailey. Go ahead and call me jellous but I was the one who was always there for him. When his friends died, his her was broken from other girls, and even when he was just having a rough time or on the verge of a anxiety attack I WAS THERE. HE WASN'T THERE FOR ME NOW. At the same time that all these emotions went through my head the other half of me said " go give him a hug, tell him you are sorry and are fine with just being friends". For 45 min we just awkwardly stood there neither one of us talked we just made eye contact while Serena talked.
WHY DO GUYS HAVE TO BE SUCH JERKS!!!
