Gotta Go My Own Way ~#2~ (N.G./C.D.)

Chapter 21

Nash's POV

I have to admit, seeing Rosalie's name pop up on my phone sent a smile to my lips. I answer and joyfully greet her, knowing she was probably still upset for the loss of her dad. The thing is, her voice sounds different than normal and she's really calm. Rosie asks me if everyone is here, which they are and I inform them who's on the phone before putting it on speaker.

To be honest, I didn't expect the reason for her calling was to say goodbye. I mean, Rosie is Rosie, and I assumed she would've gotten herself in a mess there for a bit before coming back. Hearing her say that she loves us and goodbye was what sent my world crashing down. It's hard to remember exactly what I did when they ended the call. I know I was panicking, as was everyone else. Cameron called for urgent travel, resulting in us taking a private jet all the way to South Carolina.

I run my hand softly along her cheek and let a tear escape my glossy eyes. She looks so emotionless and frail. It's like I'm afraid to touch her because she'll break. 

Rosalie's hooked up to an IV and a mask is over her mouth and nose, to help her breathe while she's in this coma. I tried to talk with her mom about what exactly was happening but it was no use. She was more of a wreck than any of us.

I've probably been in here for an hour, just admiring her beauty one last time. I'm not sure the next time we'll meet, or if we ever will again. I want to take it all, her gorgeous blonde hair, her perfect pink lips, the list could go on forever.

"Hey, uh, I wanted to have time too." Cam peeks in from the door. "Sorry, you were just in here a long time."

I nod wordlessly and get up, leaving him alone with the girl I love.

The thing is, I almost immediately fell in love with her upon first sight. A big throw back to that party where Cam and I crashed and played truth or dare. In a way, she fascinated me. Due to my history with girls, I just assumed she would love Cameron and only Cameron, especially because he's an amazing guy and perfect for her. 

I don't know what I want with her anymore. I guess I should just give up before it all ends up hurting more.

Cameron's POV

Let's just say that Rosie and I didn't end on a good note. I had called her with an excuse about the movie deal. The truth is, I just really wanted to hear her voice.

Go ahead, call me screwed up, especially after I did all those things that hurt her. It's not that I'd intentionally hurt her, ever. It's actually quite the opposite. I don't know anyone who couldn't fall in love with her charming personality and beautiful voice.

But, back to the day she called Nash. We were all sitting in our apartment, talking about the tour and all of our crazy adventures so far. I notice Nash grin and answer his phone, getting up to walk away. It was a second later his face fell and informed us Rosalie was on the phone. I didn't know what to expect so I didn't prepare myself to what eventually sent me in a downwards spiral.

I immediately took action to get us all to go see her. I don't give a damn if one of they didn't because it's Rosie and I'd do anything for her.

You may be questioning me, because I cheated on her and screwed her over so many times. I've always loved her. It didn't stop. She was an easy target, according to everyone else, so they would go after her. Me, being me, just wouldn't let her get hurt and took matters into my own hands. I guess I should've found a better way because it led to her hating me and me longing for her love again.

I didn't mean to kick Nash out just a second ago, it's just that I want her to myself. Call me selfish, I don't care. I have to say, I did suspect something going on between Nash and Rosie. As far as I knew, she hasn't felt the same way.

The door clicks shut behind me and I sit in the chair right next to the bed. I almost want to vomit, taking in this scene. She's not living on her own right now, this machine is the only thing pumping life into her. I don't know why her mom let them put her into a coma. Now, we have to leave it up to her and knowing Rosie, the odds aren't good.

I brush hair out of her face and tuck a golden strand behind her ear. I miss her. The funny thing is, she probably wouldn't let me do this if she were awake. I smile and kiss her forehead lightly before striding back out to the other guys.

We had all seen her together, only a few of us were going in alone, aka me, Nash, Shawn, and the Jacks. We were the ones closest to her anyways.

"You guys ready to go? We have a show in Chicago in 2 days." I clear my throat.

"You want to do it, even without Rosalie?" Nash looks back at me sadly.

"Yeah. It'll take our minds of her."

"We can't just forget about her, Cameron. Maybe you can but I'm sure as hell not gonna try." Gilinsky rolls his eyes.

"Geez guys, let's just calm down." I raise my eyebrows.

"Calm down? One of our best friends are in a coma for God's sake!" Nash walks away.

"What else are we supposed to do? Wait around until she wakes up? News flash guys, it's Rosie and she probably won't." I immediately regret the words right after they escape my lips. I pale as I see everyone go silent and look at me, disgusted.

"That was low, man." Shawn sighs and follows the path Nash took.

"Maybe you need some time off." Aaron frowns at me.

"I don't need time off." I snap and run my fingers through my hair.

"Okay, okay." Aaron shakes his head and leaves, along with everyone else.

I glance back into the room Rosie is in and bite my lip before striding up to the guys.

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A/N: that was shortishh but ppl still haven't read the last part soo. again, this is the gloomy side of the book. it picks up to  lighter mood in a bit. i may skip ahead however long she is in a coma or when it all stops ;;;;)))) it's hitting the major plot points now js 

bYe,

<Hailey>