We're not In Love [JADINE]

Chapter 2: But for the record, he kinda looked cute.

I knew love became my weak point when I decided to sacrifice my dignity for Kean and committed the dumbest mistake I could ever make for my entire life- that is to get my life involve with James' shits.

I wish all this things I'm feeling for Kean are just like studying where you can just buy books or go surf on the internet just to learn the things you wanna know. But no. This is way harder than having a 100 item exam on geometry- at least you can pull an all-nighter to study and expect a higher grade on that. But in Love, there are no such things as tutors or textbooks or subject about it offered on schools. And the hardest part in this is the reality where sometimes, the ones we love can't commit the same feeling we offer them.

But despite that fact, we still keep pushing. We still keep doing stupid things, thinking that someday, that person we love the most might recognize our efforts. That someday, they might see us as someone worth loving too.

I didn't know exactly the reason behind the tears that started to roll on my cheeks. I don't know if it was because I've lost dignity and respect for myself when I kissed James or was it because of all the things I came up to realize my feelings for Kean. It was never an easy to see the person you love the most, running for another person who doesn't care at him at all. And what's worst is, here I am, putting my lips to a stranger's lips just to make the love of my life's dream come true.

I finally let myself fall to the floor after that kiss I made with James. My heart literally broke into pieces when I saw Kean run after Ella when they both saw me and James kissing. It hurts even more to think that Kean just ran out just like that. Not thinking about how I feel. Wasn't he even shocked of what I did? It's just plain frustrating.

"Bitch wtf?!" James blurted out. I looked at him while he tries to brush off my lip gloss from his lips. I calmed myself out first and then stood up again, dusting my jeans.

"Wow. Don't react as if it's something new to you." I announced and the crowd went "oooooh" around us. James seemed to look annoyed and confused at the same time. "Wtf?" he managed to say.

I gulped and then moved around facing the people inside the cafeteria and raised my right hand to silence them. Everyone was looking furious at me and I feel so tensed but I have to continue my plan.

"This guy" I pointed my finger to him. "Yes, The Popular James Reid that I just kissed a while ago, is my Long Time Secret Boyfriend." I announced and everyone inside the cafeteria went loud, blabbering their thoughts about what I just said. James quickly grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him. His eyes were so terrifying but I ignored it and looked away.

It is my plan to do this after all and I have to finish it- even when I'm actually tearing up inside right now. It's for Kean's sake and I have to do it, no matter what. Besides, I've already made a huge step. I can't look back anymore.

"Baby will you stop holding me like that. My arm hurts." I said in a sweet tone. I saw James brow furrowed while he looks at me confused.

"I'm your boyfriend? Seriously? You're not even my type! What the hell are you saying?" He blurted out. I gave him a teasing smile and pulled myself out of his grip. "Sorry, I can't help it. I want everyone to know." I stated and I was so sure James cursed me for that.

"Is this legit man? How come we didn't know?" One of his friends asked while grabbing his shoulder. He pushed it away and gave them piercing stare. "This bitch is crazy. Don't ever believe what she says!" He exclaimed.

The next thing I knew, James was dragging me out of the place. His hand was almost carved on my arm. Despite the fear and nervousness, I felt towards him, I couldn't help but to laugh a little on how angry he looks like while he pulls me. I literally didn't expect that he would react this way.

James brought me at the school parking lot where there were only a few people passing by. I pulled myself away from him and crossed my arms.

"What the hell did you just say? I'm your what? Secret boyfriend? Wtf?!" he blurted out. I tried to hide my smirk while he exclaims in front of me, looking like a grade schooler being bullied by his older classmate.

But for the record, he kinda looked cute.

"Trust me, It's for your own good." I said to him.

"For my own good? For Christ sake! Ruining my name? Is that making me on good pace?" He retorted and this time, I couldn't get a hold on my laugh anymore on how he looked so affected by the way he takes what happened earlier.

He looked at me clueless of sudden bursts of laughter. I held a grip and cleared my throat. "You know Ella Devan right? You can say bye bye to her already. Thanks to me." I informed him.

I saw James' face cleared out from being vexed after I finished talking. "What are you talking about?" He asked in a cold tone. I looked at him.

"Okay, so here's the deal." I started off, he crossed his arms and then tilted his body to face me. "Look, Ella is such a clingy bitch, right? So I made you a favor. I acted as your girlfriend so she'd stop running after you. Great Idea right?" I explained and flashed my grin to him.

James looked at me really annoyed. He raised his right hand and planned to hit me hard. I immediately covered myself with my bare hands and wait for the outcome of my dumb choices. But to my surprise, the strike didn't land. Thanks to that someone who called out James' name out of nowhere.

We both pant and looked around us to see who called James.

Few moments later, a lady maybe in her 40's got out from a Black Fortuner which was parked near our spot and went straight to us. The lady was wearing a huge pink sunglasses, matching her light pink flowery dress and brown wedge shoes. I was dumbfounded for awhile while I stare at her.

James pushed me away and met the lady's way. "What are you doing here Mom!?" James exclaimed. The lady took off her eyeglasses and flashed a sarcastic smile to him. "Mom why are yo-" The lady cut him off by pushing him out of the way. What surprised me was that the lady was looking at me, flashing her huge smile.

"Hello, there my dear. May I know your name?" She said casually. I couldn't help but to feel perplexed about her. "Uh, ma'am, was it me your asking?" I kind of slapped myself mentally when I said that.

Com'on Nadz, who would that be? Of course it's you! Stupid.

She flashed a small line of smile at me. "Yes dear, It's you I'm asking." She said while tucking few strands of her hair on the back of her ears. "Mom, she no one important." James held her shoulders. "But please Mom answer me why are yo-" The lady cut her off again by raising her hand near his face. The lady glanced back at me again, waiting for a reply from the question she asked earlier.

I was doubting at first to say anything but one amusing Idea came up to my mind. I flashed a grin and then spoke.

I had a fast change of mood and tone. "Hiii!" I greeted her in a sweet manner. "Finally, I got the chance to meet you, ma'am. My name's Nadine Lustre, James' girlfriend." I announced glancing at James then back to her. James looked at me with his sharp eyes but I ignored it and tried to maintain my smile and offered a handshake to his Mom. Too many thoughts were running inside my head but I pushed them all away and used the opportunity for my own sake. Evil laugh*

James' mom looked happy after I told her I was his son's girlfriend. I was actually expecting a slap on the face but to my surprise, she hugged me tight and gave me a peck on the cheek.

"Great! Finally, I found my son's Girlfriend!" She said, looking ecstatic.