Can This Be True? { A Zalfie Fanfic }

Alfie

I was sat in a waiting room of a hospital. The walls were all too white, the smell was all too strong. Everything was terrible, and I mean everything. Zoe didn't want to marry me, we weren't having a child. Zoe was with her parents and Joe talking to the doctor while I was sitting on the floor outside the door with no one. 

I didn't want to listen to the doctor talk, I didn't want to hear any of it. I got the gist of it on my way out though. Apparently Zoe's body couldn't cary children. I didn't even care anymore. Nothing mattered anymore. I pulled out my phone and dialed Marcus' number. He would know what to do. 

"Marcus?" I asked slowly. 

"You alright mate?" 

"Actually no, can I come over?" 

"All the way to Brighton? Why?" 

He was right though, there was no way that I would be able to catch a train and make it all the way to Brighton. "Nevermind." I hung up and I could tell that Marcus was confused, but I didn't care. I couldn't take it anymore. I slid my phone into my pocket and stood up. 

I just needed some time to myself. I needed a break from everyone. I pulled my jacket tighter against my body as I stepped out into the semi-darkness. It was about one in the afternoon but for some reason our stupid England weather had decided to make it dark and stormy, in July. I could tell that it was going to rain and I didn't want to get wet. 

I found shelter in the nearest Starbucks. I ordered a drink and sat down all in a haze. I still didn't want to except what had happened. Zoe wasn't pregnant anymore. It all started to sink in and for a quick moment I thought I was going to cry. I didn't though, and for that I was thankful. 

I glanced around the warm coffee shop and saw no one familiar, only strange faces. I saw a lot of couples though. Happy ones. I groaned, why would nothing ever go right, ever? I glanced down at my half empty hot chocolate. I suddenly didn't feel like finishing it. I tossed it in the bin on the way out of the shop. 

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I was halfway to Hyde Park when it started to rain. And I mean rain. The water came pouring down, drenching me. I liked it though, it hid the fact that I was crying. I felt like I had cried more in the past year than I ever had in my entire life. 

I finally made it to the place where Zoe, Louise, and I had had a meetup which felt ages ago. It had only been less than a year ago, but so much had happened since then. I sat down on a wet bench, more water wouldn't hurt me. I felt my phone buzz, but I ignored it. 

Nothing mattered anymore. Nothing at all. Everything I had dreamed about was gone. Zoe didn't want to marry me and I wasn't going to be a father. Everything that I had dreamed about my entire life was gone. It was as if someone had snapped their fingers taking away everything good in my life, like they had done it just for fun. 

My phone buzzed again and this time I glanced at it. It was Zoe. 

'We need to talk now.' 

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