I Hate You

Chapter 1

    //DANS POV//

 I walked into the grey building. It seemed as if all my body had lost feeling. I had no emotion, except for fear, anxiety, depression. Just a build up of all the bad things I've ever felt. My father led me into the two large front doors. It was very unnatural in there.. all white, light pastel colours filling the room. I really didn't wanna be here, but I had to. The worst time of my life would be right now, in this moment, nothing but bad thoughts filled my head. In the lobby, the secretary asked us about what had happened while I sat down near the other end of the room so that my father and this lady could talk about what happened as i f I didn't already know. I had a look around while they were chatting. The room was filled with " self esteem" posters. As if that even existed. Everyone just get used to themselves, not like anyone had any idea how to control the awful things being said, thought and written a out them all over everywhere you go.

     A little bit after that, I was led into a hallway. The hallway had a door at the end of it leading to a big room with stuff to do in it like puzzles, drawing books, computers, books, and a TV on the other side of it. We went through another door in there to a hallway with little rooms inside. I was led to mine. It had two beds, and two little bedside tables with a little drawer, and a small lamp. One bed was messily made, so I'm guessing that was who ever i would be rooming with.

     "Now Daniel, this is going to be your room. Your little room mate here will be Joey. You will like him, he's just a bundle of joy. Now if you need anything, the assistance office is down the hall to the right, or you can ask another patient. Have a nice day." The lady smiled, and left me in the room by myself with my thoughts. I wonder who Joey was.. he sounded young, but he couldn't of been.. maybe some sort of mental illness he had became to overpower him for the worst. Although me being a 16 year old, I really shouldn't be thinking of other people as "young", because lets be honest. I don't even have my drivers licence yet, but then again I didn't want to. I didn't want to do anything anymore except die, but no because my dumb ass brother had to come into the bathroom and call the police. I fucking hate him sometimes, he knew I was happy with what I was doing but he was just thinking about himself. Anyway, I left my room and decided to go to that big room and try to read or something. As I got there, I realized I was the only one in there so it was safe to go inside. I really didn't want to communicate or so anything or even look at anyone right now. It's not very different from how I was before all of this. I just sat on my room on the internet wondering how I could possibly do anything right. All my thoughts were piled up in my head and guess what I was right here under it, trying ti escape all of the bad memories, and horrible thoughts but I couldn't. I just couldn't move, that's all. I was just stuck under all of the bad thoughts and I couldn't get to the good ones.

     I walked over to a big rack of books, and picked out a Harry Potter one, considering I'm a loser nerd like I've always been. I  walked down the long row all the way to the end, where I sat down, hoping I was hidden from everyone else, and began to read. Soon enough, with all the bad luck I carry around with me, some guys come into the room, and starting hysterically laughing about something. I listened to it, and by the sounds of it, they were making fun of someone.

     "He's such a happy guy, I don't know why, he's a little nerd." One laughed.

     "Yeah..ha." The other one laughed nervously.

     "He's such a gay faggot." The first one went on again. They both came to a stop of talking after they stopped at the aisle next to the one that I was hiding in. My heart was pounding very fast, and I glanced over the aisle, to see a guy reading there. He was huddled up just like me, but he looked up at the two guys who were just talking.

     "Hey Gaywad we were just talking about you!" One yelled.

     "Joey, I don't have time for this, I'm trying to read" the boy muttered. Joey? Joey was the guy that the secretary said that i d be rooming with. I didn't wanna room with such an asshole of a guy. I thought she said that he was nice.. Guess most people aren't meant to live up to what other people say they are.

     "Nah.. What are ya reading there? Fifty shades of grey? Huh little gay boy?"

     "Shut up Ricky.. as if I would be reading that.It's not even a good book."

     "How else would you know that little Philly?" Ricky teased.

     "Because it's sexual, and I don't like that. Now please go so I can finish my book." The boy said.

     "Okay, have fun with your little Fifty Shades Of Grey session." Joey laughed, and they both left.

      "Bloody hell.." The boy mumbled, and put down the book and began to cry.. I put my book back too, and went back to my room. There I found Joey, and Ricky  sitting on his bed and Ricky  next to him, both of them talking about how idiot and stupid that boy is.

     I walked in, and they stopped talking.

      "Can I help you?" Joey asked cockily.

      " I was just gonna go to bed.." I stuttered, and made myself seem even more awkward.

      Both of their eyes lit up as I mentioned "go to bed" probably because they realized that I was new in here.

     "Ohhhhh, it's the new guy." Ricky tapped Joey on the shoulder with the back of his fingers.

      "Oh, what's your name new guy?" Joey asked and stood up to be a little shorter than me, being me i was taller than everyone at a surprising height of 6'3.

     " Uh.. Dan?" I muttered out, before slipping past and sitting on my bed. 

     " Ohh, Dan. Well, we'll let you sleep, and we'll go to Ricky's room. Byee." Joey said before leaving.

      I needed a comb so I got up and went to the assistance office, where they gave me a comb, a toothbrush and some toothpaste. I went to my room, combed my hair, and went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth, went back to my room, put the stuff in the drawers, and went to sleep, ending my first day at Hell Academy.