Sometimes I wonder why I deal with this. Things never go the way I want and I'm always sad. The sadness takes over and I lose myself again. I don't want to lose myself again. I don't know who I am, but I don't want to be somebody else.
I'm sad and I don't want to be.
It ruins everything.
I don't want to be a cutter, but at the same time I sometimes want nothing else.
One day ends and another must begin. Sometimes I never want today to end, and other times I want it to end quickly and disappear.
I don't want to ruin everything.
