Have I ever said I Love You to someone I was in a relationship with?
Yes.
Have I ever said I Love You to someone I was in a relationship with and meant it?
No.
I've only told two of my past boyfriends that I loved them. Two out of five.
I started dating in eighth grade. I've had one each school year since then, pretty much. M for a week and a half in eighth grade. T for a week and a half some point in the first half of ninth grade. B towards the end of ninth through most of tenth, so I count him as my tenth grade boyfriend. K for a few months in the middle of eleventh grade. R over the summer before twelfth, and I don't really plan to date again for the rest of my senior year.
The problem with love is that to a lot of people it's just a game.
To M and K, I was easily replaceable. To T, I was irreplaceable according to his sister who I'm close friends with. To B, I was completely disposable. And I don't know about R yet since we only broke up about a month ago, but he didn't seem to care much when we broke up so obviously that means something.
A word of advice: never tell someone you love them, romantically, unless you are absolutely sure you mean it and that they're worth it. Because some people treat love like a lousy game, playing with someone like they're a toy. Play with you till they get bored or, even worse, act as if they truly care and then break you to bits.
I never once meant it when I said it. I'd lie and say I don't know why I did it, but I do know. I was stupid and careless. One boy I only said it to because he was falling apart from the pressures of the outside world. The other boy I said it to because I thought I had nothing to lose.
I was wrong.
At the time I was so numb to myself and just wanted to feel something, anything good. Ha, you can probably already tell how well that went. But that's another story entirely, one I may have already told.
So please, don't say I Love You if you don't mean it. It can only lead to heartache.
