knowing you (process of editing)

Chapter Seventeen~ Her Battle

I was angry. My wolf was enraged by my father and Baylon trying to tell me what to do. I didn't feel like I needed to be treated like a delicate flower. I was wolf, like everyone else out there, and could fight just like the rest of them. I didn't have time to think about that though, I needed to get my head straight for the battle. That's when I smelled them...They didn't try to hide their scent, they wanted us to know that they were ready to go! I felt a rush of fear and excitement come over me all at once. Was I ready for this fight? My wolf had been waiting for a moment like this my whole life. I couldn't imagine the rush of this battle being so fulfilling for me. I changed immediately into my wolf form and began to attack! everyone seemed in awe with my wolf, I didn't understand why. But it gave me time to get the upper hand on them. First there was a female she ran to attack me by grabbing my neck from behind and I had to grab her to kill her before she did me in. I wrestled her down to ground and finally got a hold of her, I tore into her throat. I felt empowered, but also sad. She belongs to someone..

The next thing that I knew there were two wolves coming at me snarling in anger. They must be trying to avenge her death. One was really huge so he had to be a male and the other was smaller. They were prepared to demolish me. I knew that I had to fight, but I also knew that there was no way that I was gonna win this fight. Just as I got myself mentally prepared to try and fight these two, a third wolf came from out of nowhere and jumped on top of me! There I was fighting for my life trying to fight all three of these wolves and I was losing...They were ripping me to shreds and I couldn't do anything to save myself. Just then, out of the corner of my eye, I saw Baylon charging towards us! He instantly broke the biggest ones neck. Then he went for the medium sized one, and while he was fighting I decided to make ground beef of the last one left. I fought her with everything in me until she laid there without anymore movement. I was covered in blood, and panting with exhaustion. I didn't think that I could go anymore, but I had to fight another!

We were heavy into our brawl, when instantly she stopped. I couldn't understand why she quit fighting until I looked up to see that Baylon had defeated their leader, it was over! But then a strong pang of overwhelming pain came over me. I didn't know what it was. I was no longer fighting, maybe it was an injury I didn't realize that I had. I started to limp towards Baylon and that's when I saw him. It was Alpha Cloud lying on the grass, dead! My father was over him panicking,  trying to save him, but it was too late. My pain deepened... It was Baylons pain that I was experiencing inside of my heart. My love was devastated by this. I went to him, but he pushed me away and ran towards the pack house. I wanted to help him so badly, but I knew there was not a lot that I could do about this. The Rogues who could and wanted to get away ran from the area in defeat and the others, well they were captured by our pack for questioning and punishment. we stayed trying to clean up the mess that was left.

They took Alpha Clouds body away in a sheet, and the rest of us started gathering the fatally injured others. It was really awful. I didn't think of the after effects of what a war truly was. So many carcasses that had to be cleaned up and buried. The people crying over their loved ones, and we had to show our respects to the Rogues who also died. They were cleaned and put into pine boxes also, but not to be buried. They were left there so that the rogues could come and take them for their proper burial. It all was so exhausting, I felt like I would never be able to sleep again after witnessing all of that, and being a part of it. I never wanted to see that side of battle. My father later came to me where I was sitting under a tree with a tear streaked face, feeling drained, and defeated.

"Kaylee, are you okay?" He could see that pure sadness in my eyes. " I tried to tell you that this was alot more than I wanted you to have to see. We still have so much more to do here. This isn't over by a longshot. Now I need to go to try and take my pack back before someone else tries to make themselves the leader. We need to leave immediately." I jumped up, "Who us?" He stood up slowly. "No sweetheart, your brother and I. And Alpha Cloud was suppose to go with us. I don't know what the plan is now. I needed to have a strong Alpha leader by my side to convince them that I still have the support of all the packs in the nation. I will have to just try to reach out to another pack. And all of the packs that are around the pack there. Its at least four other packs there." He just shook his head. "Dad, how can you think about all of that at a time like this?" I asked. "This is the exact time when I have to think about this Kaylee, I have to strike while the iron is hot!" I didn't even know what that meant, all that I knew is that I was deflated by all of this and I just wanted to go back to the Pack House and see if Baylon was okay, and then lay down and sleep for like a week. I was beat even though we won.

When we finally got there everyone was quiet and sullen around the house. People were getting tended to by the pack doctor, and others were in their own world like the were just in shock. It was a sad day, I thought that at the end of this that we would be cheering and happy. What the hell was I thinking going into this battle? It was sad and depressing, people were hurt, dead. This was the worst day ever. I vowed that day that I would never again volunteer to go into battle, ever again!!! I needed to find Baylon so I went up to his room to see if he was there. When I walked in I found him there just sitting on his bed. His eyes were bloodshot red and his hair was all mangled. He was just staring into space, looking sadder than I have ever seen anyone look in my life. I just stood there for a moment clueless in what to do or say. He looked up at me and then looked back down with a sort of roll in his eyes, I felt his anger inside, but mostly his sadness. It was so overwhelming that I began to cry.

"How are you feeling?" I asked softly. "How do you think that I'm feeling? You feel it Kaylee! I am in so much pain!!" He snarled at me. I felt hurt, confused, and overwhelming sadness. "If you hadn't been there I could've helped my father fight instead of coming to your rescue." He said with distain. I felt a sharp pain in my heart. How could he say that to me? "Baylon, it isn't my fault that your father died, or your fault, a lot of people lost their lives in this battle." He jumped up into my face so quickly that it startled me "I was suppose to be there for him, not you!! If you had been where you were suppose to be he would be alive right now!" He looked at me with so much hatred right then all that I could do was stand there speechless. Anything that I could think to say would be the wrong. Tears fell from my eyes, I didn't know what to do but cry. He turned back around and sat back down on his bed, "Could you leave please, I need to be alone right now." He said to me with no feeling whatsoever. I couldn't help it anymore I just broke down into a flood of tears.

I ran out of that room as fast as my legs would take me. I ran down the hall to my room, wishing that it was our house across town so badly. This is the last place that I wanna be right now. The events of this day drained all of everything out of me, I couldn't be more depressed if I tried. My sister came into the room and sat next to me while I cried. "Its not over Kay, its just begun. You have to pray for our daddy." What? Is she serious right now? I just looked at her, "Are you serious right now Kaya, I cant take much more of this! Baylon is blaming me for his fathers death right now, and I killed people, or wolves, or whatever! They are dead and I did it! Then you wanna come here after everything and talk to me about daddy, and how I need to be worried about him? God, Kaya not right now!!!" She didn't look surprised at all by what I had just said, "I know you are in a bottomless pit of pain right now, that's why I told you only strength can get you through this. Baylon is just in alot of pain right now." I just looked at her in confusion. Did she realize that I was on the brink of a nervous breakdown? I guess not. I calmed down and pulled myself together. "Kaya, I know that you are trying to help, but it isn't working okay? I already talked to dad and he told me that he is going to leave to go to our old pack with Kanen to try and reclaim his place."

"You do know how dangerous that is too?" She asked ,"Well...Yeah, duh!"  Then I realized that I was being mean to her and she didn't do anything to deserve it....... "I am just scared kaya just like you, but we do have each other and that counts." We sat on the bed and hugged each other, and then she started to cry. I felt as if I wanted to cry too. So I did. Everything was so messed up right now and I just didn't know how it could get much worse than it already was. Baylons father was dead and he was blaming me, My father was going to the depths of hell with my brother to reclaim his pack, and I had to try and be strong for my mother and sister. I mean what else could happen? I needed him...and he wanted nothing to do with me. I also knew that he needed me, and I loved him still.