Changes: A New Life Book 2

Chapter 22: A Slow Day

I've been in Vincent's bed for 3 days now. Not catching a blink of sleep nor have I even took a shower. I've been sitting on Vincent's bed for 3 days, staring off into space, thinking about what I should do with my life.

Vincent's note he gave me at the air port was a page long, I didn't even bare to open the white box.

Dear Spencer Rose Deals,

      You know how much I love you, and I want to protect you forever. But you know I have made my choice that your going to have accept. I promise I will come back home. In the meanwhile you have to live your life like normal, you have to take care of yourself. Remember I am always in your heart. Please open the white box. I love you beauty.
  Love, Vincent Beck O'Adrian

I read the note over, tracing each word with my finger. I set the piece of paper on his night stand and smoothed out Vincent's shirt I was wearing.

Meghan knocked on my door to give me dinner, but I never got up to answer it. The only time I got up was to go pee. That was it. I just needed to be left alone, I needed to sleep. But I couldn't.

Meghan finally barged in and handed me breakfast. I looked at her puffy eyes and splotchy face.

"You haven't eaten in 3 days. Now you better eat this or I'll shove it down your throat.", she said handing me the plate with eggs and bacon.

I could tell by the tone of her voice, anger has taken over her sadness. That's what happens to you after grieving for so long.

I took the plate and fork, setting it onto my lap.

"Phew what's that smell?", she asked plugging her nose.

"I haven't taken a shower for a while.", I said in a soft tone.

"Well when your done your getting into that shower.", she said closing the door behind her. I looked at the plate of food in front of me. I was hungry, but I couldn't eat. So I opened the window and threw it out.

I slowly got up, but when I did I stumbled onto the ground. My legs felt like jello and I couldn't stand straight. I clenched onto the bed and pulled my self straight up.

I held onto the walls to manage to get to the door. I turned the knob and bright lights fell onto my face. I closed my eyes and tried to get over how bright it was. Squinting my eyes, I found a way to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and switched on the light.

I looked at the pale and sick girl in the mirror. Her hair was in a long knotted mess.

I took off the clothes I had on and I saw my collar bones popping out of my skin. I turned the knob for the bath and watched the steam come out of the spicket.

I got into the bath water and put my head back. I took the bottle above me and took a small wiff of it. It smelled exactly what Vince smelled like, so I put some into the water. The aroma of lemons and sandalwood was just perfect to relax too.

I broke out in tears, missing him is tearing me apart, inside and out. I will wait for him, because honestly he is everything I want. I will wait for him for 10 years if I have too.

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I got out of the bath and put on the same clothes I had on. I looked at myself in the mirror again, brushing my hair. The girl in the mirror looked worse than what she did before. Tired, pale, sick.

I walked out and Rebecca was standing outside the door.

"Spencer..", she said rubbing my shoulder. "You look terrible."

I gave a small smile and said, "I'll be back in his room again."

"Have you ate at all?", she asked me.

I stayed silent and looked at my feet. I turned around and walked into Vincent's room.  I wish I could talk to him right now, to hear his voice, to look him in his eyes. I looked up at his ceiling, eyeing all of the names.

"Please open the white box.", Vince's note replayed in my mind. I looked at the white box on his stand, wondering what would be so important in it.

I walked out of the room.

***
I walked into the living room where Rebecca and Meghan were at. They were just sitting there looking at some old albums. I sat onto the recliner and sat in silence.

I mean who could speak over a silence that loud?

I pulled out my phone, I could bare to check who even texted me. So I just checked the time.

3:30.... already? I shut my phone off and walked back into Vincent's room. I laid back down on his bed. I held the white box into my hand and lined the edges. I took off the lid to reveal rose gold ring with a small diamond rose in the middle. I slipped it onto my finger and stared at the glare from the lights.

I laid back onto the bed, breathing in the smell of his lemon aroma.

I needed him to come back home.

"I love you Vincent.", I whispered as I slowly drifted off to sleep.

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Hi again.
Yes I know it is 1:57 A.M.
Yes I know I did a double update.
Yes I know I can't believe Vince is actually gone.

But hey, I still love ya. <3

~Kenzie :)