Corner Store Girl: Janoskians: Luke and Jai Brooks Fanfiction

Chapter 21

{Jai}

I poured some Frosted Flakes into a bowl followed by some milk and sat down at the breakfast bar with a glass of orange juice in front of me. The only sound in the room was the constant clank of the spoon and glass bowl coming into contact. The absence of any one else in the room is welcoming and I love having time for just me and my thoughts. 

Last week's confession didn't cause as much of a shift in Alex than I thought. She seemed to act completely normal and not phased. Did she not care for my feelings? Could she have cared less, or was she just ignoring it like Luke says she does with everything?

She hasn't spoken a word about what happened then and I'm a bit worried. How far did Damien go? Where was he? There's still have been no sign of him next door and his car stays planted in front of the house, like a dog waiting for its master to come home.

I thought it would be easy to avoid the issue as well, which are my feelings for her, but it's been kind of hard to do considering she has the rest of the week off and it was Tuesday. She said something about Zach wanting to give her time to cope with what had happened.

Soon enough the sound of Alex's giggling tore me from my thoughts. I quickly ran my hands through my bed hair, wiped the dripping milk from my bottom lip with the back of my hand, and rubbed my eyes attempting to erase the drowsiness in them. I get up and empty the remains of my breakfast into the sink, rinse it out, and put it away. I always see Alex trying so hard to maintain the house in order for her aunt, but no one ever tries to help, so I do what I can.

Just then, I hear the usual two pair of feet walking down the stairs together. Together. It seems that's all Alex and Luke can be lately and it kills me, but at the same time I know I have no entitlement in feeling this way.

I quickly dry my hands with a small towel hanging on the oven handle bar and place it back neatly. As they enter the kitchen giggling, I make my way to leave and don't make eye contact.

"Hey!" Greets Luke before I can successfully escape the room. I turn on my heel and see a very happy couple in front of me; I try not to stare at their intertwined fingers.

"Hi." I respond as I force a smile.

"We were thinking," Luke begins as he looks at Alex with a wide grin.

"That we should all go mini golfing today." Alex chimes in. Great. They're finishing each other's sentences. How romantic.

As much fun as it was to sit on the edge of the couch last night while Alex cuddled into Luke's chest at every sign of horror during the scary movie, I'd hate to spend the day with them. When we first met her, she seemed so head strong, but lately she just appears to be so...withered. Like her strength's been demolished by Luke.

"I'll pass." I say, pretending to sound as grateful as I possibly can.

Alex slightly pouts and I feel some sort of hope that she wants me there. "You won't be third wheeling." Luke states, like he was reading my mind. The reminder of Luke and her's relationship stings and my head drops to look to the ground, but looking at how close their feet stand still blows.

"The rest of the boys are coming and they said they'll bring friends." Luke adds.

I would honestly have no problem staying home alone for the day while everyone else has their fun, but since I've been avoiding Luke and Alex I've been alone for too long. The other guys pick on me, but maybe with Luke being with Alex, there'll be space for me in the "group".

"Sure." I shrug.

"Great." Alex lets go of Luke's hand to do a mini round of applause for my acceptance to the invitation. I'm glad she's not being awkward about my liking her, but at the same time I feel like she's dismissive to my feelings, as if they mean nothing. God, I sound like a little girl.