Friends Or Enemies? Love Maybe...

When life gets to a point that you don't know who loves you and who you love...

This story is about a high schooler that live life just like us, knows that she's the worst and everyone is the best. When her crush suddenly give some attention to her, she doesn't know if she love him or not because like everyone, and even me, I've never thought that one day my crush would love me and take our relationship serious. I mean, if he knows that I've been stalking him day and night, things will go pretty bad, right? At the same time, a happy go lucky new guy in school tries his best to annoy her, and make her happy. Who is this guy that she barely knows? Will she accept her crush's love or accept this new guy that came out of nowhere?

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Having an annoying bff.

            I'm stressed! Nothing else I can say right now. Now I just want to go home, take Mushy-my beloved teddy bear- and smash my face in it. Since 11th Grade started, I just don't know why, Samantha (my bff) just keeps on avoiding herself from me.She's so damn annoying this year! I don't know if she's still mad about us having the same crush-a 12th Grade guy, Tucker Longstreet. I mean like, it's not a big deal. There are many other guys out there that is hotter than him. Moreover,I'm not so into that guy. I just don't know why, this year I felt like she's so into having a boyfriend. Hello! If she has a boyfriend, I will be nothing in her eyes.

            But the problem was that guy is seriously hot. Every time he passes by, it felt like I'm at a sandy beach, with the wind flying my hair away and the breeze caressing my face softly. I don't want to continue, no more, cause then there'll be the part that I'm at heaven and so much more. I felt like I'm the heroine in Titanic or I'm Juliet for 30 seconds. The thing was that, he never, I repeat NEVER, realizes that I'm here at that moment, just beside him. I want to sing 'Realize' by Colbie Caillat right now.

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other,

And we'll never find another.

            I remembered, once, he passed by and say hello to me and I think I'm the one that is always acting 'not there' when he passes by cause I'm at the 'felt like flying' scene of Titanic. I snap my fingers, smile at him and try to pronounce Hi! in aproper way. And guess what, when I just started to say Hi!, he disappeared. GREAT!

            About Samantha, she's acting like she's matured now. I'm not saying I'm still acting childish but she's acting way too matured. She even has planned her schedule for her life! Look at her now, she always tie her hair neatly and tightly. Actually, now she seldom ties her hair cause most of the time her hair is completely short. She even put on elder makeup! I think she got it from her mom. Totally vice versa than me. I don't say that my hair is messy, just that I love to let my hair dance freely on my shoulder and makeup-of course only lip gloss(lipstick is never an option). Short hair is not my style. Samantha used to be like me before. Now, she didn't even care about me-she's starting to hang out with nerds :O