Friends Or Enemies? Love Maybe...

Chapter 14

14

A sleepover.

            Tucker didn’t talk much. Lynda excused herself because she has something to do. What Tucker said to my mom was a part of himself that I’ve never known before. I’ve never lied to my Mom. If I’ve done something wrong I’ll say the truth and be honest. The question here is why did he lie to Mom? He can just say the truth. It’s not a big deal. Just say that we were just chatting bout nothing. Okay, I didn’t expect him to say that we danced, that shall be a secret but saying that we’re discussing about school stuff is unacceptable. That’s a lie. I’m still not sure about forgiving him. Everything is confusing me. Tucker is confusing me. Why he lied to my mom? Why he took care of me? Whydid he do something that makes everyone believe that we’re a couple? I don’t want to make any conclusions nor hypothesis. I don’t want to give in hope for anymore relationship.

            I’ve been in a serious relationship before but at last I know that he was just playing on me. He tricked me. I gave all my hope, my love to him but he laughed at me in return. I’m afraid to give hope to anyone else after that. Having crush is usual. I can have more than five crushes at a time but love is a big deal. I don’t want Tucker to be that big deal. I want him to be my friend and my neighbour. That’s all. Everyone thinks that I hate Jack but actually, I just don’t want to be anything with him. It’s not that I hate him, I’m just afraid of falling in love with him and I will be dumped like what I’ve experienced before. I know what’s one-night-stand guy could do. They are the most sweet and charming man you can ever imagine and after they get what they want, they’ll show the evil side of their heart like no other evil you can ever imagine. I don’t know when will my heart starts to love someone again but for now, I’ll only love Mom.

            “Tina, I’ve made the bed for you. Do you need some help?” “I think so.” Ok. Don’t get me wrong here. I’m not a kind of person who love to ask for help from others but in my situation now, I really need some help. I don’t want to faint and make Tucker worried about me again. Tucker helped me to bed and sit next to me. “Christina, I was so worried about you just now.” “I know, Lynda told everything to me.” “Actually I have something that I want to say to you since the first day I moved into this house. For all this while, I’ve been looking at you, actually, stalking on you. I know you since last year and to be honest with you, every day since the day I saw you, I always want to know about you. I don’t know why, I felt peaceful and happy when you’re around. I think, this is…” Tucker lowered his body and our eyes gaze to each other. From his eyes, I know he is sincere about this and it comes sincerely from the deepest part of his heartbut I’m just not ready to open my heart to anyone.